MiSsYsTyLiSh....!!

2007-08-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

oh gosh. im so tired of work. n my shift. damn. my shift is all over the place. but so far so good. i have most of the cases that i wana see liao. :) collapse, decomposed body, maternity.. its sooooo nice to get to finally these cases. hee. but its kinda sad tho. my first maternity case was a breech maternity whereby other parts of the body other than the head is coming out first. when i checked the lady, i was shocked to see the 2 lil legs out. by then i oreadi realized something was wrong, and the baby MIGHT not survive. we cant deliver on scene as it was too dangerous, so we had to standby the hospital. then at the hospital i stayed for a while to watch the delivery, and yes, the baby has already suffocated. so sad man.

oh yah work has been sooooo tired? stressful? whateva it is la. so ya. went out wif some of the rota 3 fire fighters to sentosa. 2 of them having birthdays. Happy birthday darini and syed!!!! n yes, this outing has really put my mind off work. haha. lucky for me. oh well. tats all for now.

i miss e dancers. i think kakak coming back home tmr. i miss her loads too! n oh.. wawa is no longer sing**!!! hehe. :)

2007-08-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

i tot i was goin to DIE. really. i shall not say tat it was the worst experience of my life, but i'd say tat it was a total life changing experience for me.

well it all started wif a simple 995 call. a guy complained of shortness of breath in the wee hours of the morning. so there we were trying to save one life. went up to e 11th floor, did wat we are supposed to do, den prepared to load and go. as we were abt to leave the house, a loud bang followed by trembles and swaying of the building. it was damn F***ing shocking ok. it went on for a few seconds, n we tot it was an earthquake! it was really damn scary wen the whole building shook ok! DAMN~ den we quickly looked down coz we "predicted" tat somebody was trying to sabo our alpha. but thankfully no. den suddenly out of nowhere. thick black smoke. apparently the loud bang n trembles were from an explosion from a gas source or something. so we quickly evacuated using the lift (plz do not do this in a case of fire! we had no choice coz we're too high up wif a heavy casualty). once we're downstairs, pple are oreadi shouting, n den i saw the blaze. it was damn big. i swear i neva saw fire tat big and scary before. burnt stuff are falling all over the place right above us! it was damn scary. but the pple there very chaotic. bein paramedics, we don hav any hoses or whateva to put out the fire, n the pple are like expecting us to do somethin! which we cant! den somemore im wearing my no.4, so pple tot im a fire fighter.~ so we juz had to help evacuate, called for e pumpers, and left the scene ASAP coz we had the casualty in the alpha wif us! so we sent him to the hotel, and were called back to e same location for even MORE casualties. it was really scary. my role as a lvl 1 trainee is just to assist, but wen we arrived, the police were like expecting me to do it all by myself, which yes, i did all the Patient assessment model all by myself bcoz there were too MANY casualties. burns, smoke inhalation. it was crazy. 5 alphas were there, and more were asked to cover up. gosh. it was crazy. but like i said, it was a definite life changing experience for me.

Go and watch the News tonite. 3rd august. the day i saved many lives. the day i tot im gonna die. n e day ive had the best satisfaction ever.

i love being a paramedic. :)

2007-07-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

i.hate.this.feeling.

whatever i said seems wrong..
i dun feel a sense of belonging anymore.
who am i to u?
why do u treat me this way?
i wonder why.
is there something wrong?
i dont know.
i dono how/what to feel rite now.
mixed emotions.
this sux.

i love u anw.gdnite.

2007-07-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

wow. so many things have been happening lately. n yea i miss blogging seh. :) some updates....

guess wat! ive passed out from my level 1 paramedic training. :) :) it seems like time passes by so fast seh. HAHA. well its a good thing of cos. being in the army has definitely opened up my eyes. n im definitely more regimental now.. i think. :) n i definitely met some nice people over there. kinda miss the guys. marching wif them. singing wif them. studying wif them. basically, we did everything together. as a team. HAHA. yeap. take care guys. :) n now im in cda juz wasting our time. HAHA. well oh ya. i was POSTED to Alexandra Fire Station. i repeat. i was POSTED! i didnt choose it ok. its soooo damn far la! i was hoping for woodlands OR bukit batok fire stn. but didnt get it :( haiz.. nvm la.. alexandra is one of the best fire stns anw. i hope its gonna be a good learning environment for me.n oh its in the same area as my boyfie. so hope to bump into him whenever there's an ambulance call + a police call. HAHA.

well anw i enjoyed shopping yesterday. i spent ALOT. i really mean ALOT. haha. it feels real good to shop u noe. been quite some time since i spent so much. hehe. i think i wana go shopping again soon. n i wana go watch a movie. n have good food. anyone wana date me? HAHA.

haiz. i think i will need a damn good holiday for myself. a fren recommended bali. haha. sounds good huh. oh well. anyone wana go for a holiday?

hmm. i hope u cud tell me something. juz a lil something will do. don make me keep on thinking. dun make me keep on guessing. or maybe im expecting too much. haiz. plz. tell me.

2007-07-07T09:56:00.000+08:00

my second intravenous infusion done! phew~ im glad both IVs were successful. a few more to go and i'm goona pass! last week's test was brilliant. i scored well. i think. tats wat sgt told me. HAHA. oh well. last week has been quite a good week. but juz tat half of e week i was feeling really unwell. including the day i was having the test, i was having e damn fever.. lucky its not dengue. anw e boys are getting more friendlier. wanted to watch transformers wif them after their bookout, but i was too weak to goo. HAHA. sori guys.

im looking forward to see him today. i miss u la. hee. n oh i miss my girls too. got a shopping date wif rai n wawa next fri. cant wait!

n oh! i cant wait for payday! my first career pay! wee.

i dono wat ure talking abt. i dono wat u mean. ure showing something.but i still don get it.

2007-06-30T12:09:00.000+08:00

being in the army camp is not fun :( i hate camp. i hate to study wif the smelly boys.. but they are a bunch of nice pple.. :) n smart too. lots of jc guys there. n some are damn cute. :) n some are damn irritating. 4 more weeks to go before posting to fire station.. i hope i can make it thru. n OH! i hate army camp food :( bad news, im getting darker, good news, my boyfie said im losing weight. HEE :) i really miss him wen i was in camp seh. :( 2 more weeks to pay day:) :) :)

enuf abt work.. here's some updates abt last week's performance. hee. i miss wearing pretty clothes :( being in camp makes me feel ugly. but used to it liao. HAHA. here's some pixies.

hee.look at wawa.not finished wif makeup. coz gotta do hair for evry1. ;p

so here i am helping her to paint her face.hee

fad n me

fad, az the chief n me.hee.

chief n me.heheehe

n junior. n hair up done

fad n me againHAHA

e pretty flowers

repFus3:)

ok la tats all. need to study liao. :( got lots of test next week.

2007-06-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

gentarasa was "unexpectecedly" great.. HAHA. seriously..it was nice.. the starting was a boom.. had some great comedy too. but the story line, abt how singapura started n all, ok ok je laaa.. but e worse part is.. goin to the musical in my uniform! yucks.. too bad had to rush from work to the show... free show somemore! haha..n yes it is ugly to be wearing e smart4 to the show.. everybody look so pretty...

speaking of work. 2nd day is sooo BORING. they had nothing for us to do.. n tat guy keep on talking n talking n talking... sheeeeesh~ i was yawning all the way man.. den had so many jabs.. e first day had flu n thyroid jab.. which is damn pain till i cant sleep.. den just now had tetanus jab n it was the most painful one~ dammit man.. n e most irritating part was the drawing of blood. the medics at the medical ctr were kinda not used to it especially iwif my "invisible vein".. the first medic tried.. unsuccesful.. he seem to be in shock or something.. he swabbed me 3 times.. but needle was still not inserted.. so had to change needle coz too long exposure oreadi.. the next medic came. cant locate my vein. but manage to insert the needle. but wrong spot. no blood. den he took out the needle without taking off e tourniquet first~gees. den finally another medic came.. n finally.. blood came out..

haiya. tired ar.. got performance tmr. sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

2007-06-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

YUM YUM YUM! today is makansutra day! presented by Lala & Beng. haha..

well actually we had nothing to do, so we decided to go around and find the best food for the day.. n yes its Lala VS Beng beng. huahuahua... we have 3 foods for today..so let e tasting or rather the eating BEGIN!!!!

First up, NASI SAMBAL GORENG at WOODLANDS NORTH PLAZA! pure shiooookkkness ar! from the sambal goreng to the chix n even the egg! let the pix do the talking..HAHA.

well just look at that! *drooling*

and tats the shop name.. in case u all wana drop by.. HAHA.. u can take 911 fom woodlands int.. n stop at the woodlands north plaza..

OK NEXT is the NASI AYAM at teckwhye..the one atas bukit tu... HAHA .. e chilli is very nice.. e rice very fragrant.. n e chix, super YUM LA! hahaha..

ok so here's the NASI AYAM!!!

and the succulent chix!

just look at tat super YUM baby chix!!

and tats the shop name..Sinaran Chicken Rice.. HAHA..the signboard blocked laaa.. haha.. but oh well.. thumbs up for the NASI AYAM!! shud go there n try ok!

AND LAST but definitely not the least, the CHICKEN BAN MIAN from BANQUET at Woodlands Causeway point!!!! check this baby out~

well honestly it doesnt look so appetizing in this pix. but i tell u ar! WAH! the taste DAMN YUMMY SHIOOK AR.. there's the banmian, chix n egg which cant be seen.. n i tell ya, this is definitely our best pick!!!! n oh ya, its from Banquet; Handmade Noodle stall.. must go try LA!! trust my taste buds man!

and now for the ratings...~!

Food 1: Nasi Sambal Goreng recommended by LALA (8 n half/10)

Food 2: Nasi Ayam recommended by BENG (8/10)

Food 3: Ban Mian recommended by LALA (9/10)!!!!!

n of course the winning food for the day is the CHICKEN BAN MIAN!!!!! super shiok shiok shiok! HAHA.
huahuahua! i WIN baby!

STAY TUNED FOR OUR NEXT EPISODE OF FOOD HUNTING.. MAKAN PLACES LOST AND FOUND by LALA n BENG! hahhaahhahahaahahahhahahahhahahahah!

n oh! i wanted dessert jus nw, but too full liao... den went to dance prac.. n found out that..............................................................................................................................

i have to memorise this stu*** song by tmr! argh~

Bungo mawar hai bungo melati
Bungo melati dibuang jangan
Bungo diukir, hai bungo diumai dia
Hai dibuang jangan
Amik nidak la maswo ke hati
Kito belakar ditinggal jangan
Ai Ai Ai Ai Ai Dia
Hai ditinggal jangan

-iHATEsinging-

-iLOVEeating-

2007-06-15T19:07:00.000+08:00

the dance choreography is gonna be done soon.. I THINK. haha.. i have 2 days of rest now.. before a damn hectic week next week.. trainings are gonna b on every single day! die man~~! but i like it..despite all the lebams on my legs, n the muscle strains.. haha..

ANW, somehow, wawa had a huge immense enormous appettite la juz now! haha.. n of cos, i cant juz look at her eat.. i had to eat WITH her too! haha.. we had lasagne in RP, chicken ban mian at e coswey banquet, nachos in the movies *we watched shrek3!!!*, and donuts n waffles.. phew! tats a whole lot of food in my tummy! i gained a whole damn alot of weight. *haiz* haha.. then i mentioned to her tat ive not been eating pizzas for a while now(not tat i want to eat it at that point of time la).. but she willingly ajak me to go eat pizzas.. n of cos i said NO..haha.. there's too much junk in this body liao.. wow..! HAHA.

oh ya.den went home n saw a dispute under my blk. this F#$%^&#$%^& sial tingkat 3 guy beat up my neighbour.. n the one beaten up is only in his teens. the sial tingkat 3 guy has been in n out of prison for soooo many times mann! there was once he was like high on his drugs den he asked for ciggies n money.. wat the hell kan!!?? den wen i ran, he chased me.. big F$%^&*!@#!!!! so ya, back to the story,HAHA..they den called the police n ambulance too.. haha.. alpha 432 came.. den saw abg jai, n this indian PM, n another indian medic.. eelam i think.. I THINK. hahaha.. so yah.. i hope tat F***er goes back into jail n never ever come out..! he's making life so difficult for the people around here.. sometimes i don even dare to come back home coz who knows i might bump into him.. well hope not.

I HATE THAT TINGKAT TIGA JUAL NASI LEMAK GUY WHO DRINKS SMOKES DRUGS.......................................................................!

but i pity his children.early in the morning they wud be all over the place.. as young as 2 yrs old, sometimes i see them walking by themselves, all the way to the fire post ther. *even tho its not so far, but STILL! they're kids!* gosh.. they shud be placed in safer hands. n enjoy their childhood... haizzzz......................................................................................................................

ok la.. toooooooods for now~~!

i miss my mr policeman. get well soon.

2007-06-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

wen will i be getting THE CALL???!!!!

2007-06-12T17:10:00.000+08:00

YEAY!! im HAPPY! again! haha.. my laptop is FINALLY working.. went to e ACER service ctr juz now... coz my warranty ends tmr! hahaha. my wan accompanied me there. went breakfast. then fareed wanted to follow too.. haha.. sebok je! since my baby bring bike, so we went to change to car..fareed punye psl! haha.. so waited for 2 hours! so long man! den jeng jeng jeng..! my lappy is working.. well its the in built wireless tats been giving me the probs actually.. ahha.. all these while ive been using my hoome PC and now its totally feels so weirrrrD using the lappy~~~~~ HAHA. screen so much smaller.. the keyboard..aiyah..everything is different la. i miss my lappy, Ethan.............hehe.

oh ya.. after tat went to Raffles to collect my bikini from wawa~!!! nice la..HAHA.. n she prompted me to buy this red top too.. so i just bought it on impulse too! oh well..

im happy Ethan is totally ok now..im gonna surf u like CRAZY nowwww~!!!!

2007-06-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

im haappppyyy! :) went for training just now.. wah best ar! i get to lepaskan my gian man!!! finally i get to dance.. well i kinda arrived a LIL late.. haha.. but upon arrival found out tat i had to dance for Gentarase Opening! best kan!!!! i likeee man~! but the thing is, i oreadi bought the tix.. dammit la.. sori zal.. :( hehe.. but eh, i really hope i could make it to perform seh.. its 23rd june.. BUT.. i start the paramedic thing on 21st.. so i hope i get off on the sat n sun laaa... plzzz pweety plzzzzzz pray tat im free to perform..~ hehe..

i feel like posting some pix now... so here u go..

tats wawa n me.. n the stranger i love..

n tats me n nabil, e naughtiest boy ever..

well here u see 5 girls at the back seat of the car.. but actually there's 6! fad is somehow missing.. haha.

these 3 people are the best!

those were e days in school..

geraduwesyen!!!!

the last one is always the best. :)

ok la tats all.. wana go for a run liao.. bye!

2007-06-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BEST FRIENDS DAY!! haha.. well it might not be known to some of u out there that its best frens day today.. hahaa.. but i knew! n so does my bestie wawa! haha.. its been quite a while since we last met, so we had quite a blast just now.. shop shop shop! haha.. that's OUR major.. haha.. n oh.. thanks for the lovely stuff WAWA!! *bling blings!!*

oh one more thing.. i really miss dancing... to my fellow REPFUS3, I MISS U ALL!! every single one of u.. i miss u.. haha.. e other day i was kemas-ing my wardrobe, n so i tried on some old and new clothes.... n there's e bodysuit which i use for my dance trainings.. i totally miss wearing it la! n the moment it was on my body, its like WOW! i need to dance man! that's like how much i miss dancing sehh.. HAIZ~ :( i wana go for trainings but like no time la..

gosh.. n i miss my kids too. the P3 n P4.. totally miss them..:(

oh oh..! i miss my boyfie too.. :( gdnite my mr policeman~

2007-06-01T14:12:00.001+08:00

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

i need a financial consultant BADLY!! now tat i got a job, the problem now is money.. welll its not like dulu dulu anymore.. dulu wen i work, i work for shopping money.. the money tat i wud want to use for pretty clothes, stupid food, well just pretty much all about shopping.. well now, its not that case anymore.. the money i get goes to my mama, abah, nenek, nya-i and ya-i.... so that is "RESPONSIBILITY MONEY".... then comes the "STUDY MONEY" which i have to collect over 2-3 years to get my degree.. then comes the "TRANSPORT TO GO TO WORK MONEY"... i hate to go public u noe.. really.. i wana ask my mum if i can take bike license so tat my journey wud be easier.. but i TAKUT..hee.. ok ok back to money.. then what abt the "MAKAN MONEY"..... and the "BILL MONEY"..... so lets see... i'll arrange them in order of importance now..

1.) RESPONSIBILITY MONEY --> ~500
2.) STUDY MONEY -->~ 800
3.) MAKAN MONEY --> ~ 100
4.) TRANSPORT MONEY --> ~200
5.) BILL MONEY --> ~ 100

so there u go.. those amounts are on a monthly basis.. i didnt even hav space for "LEISURE MONEY!!!!!!!???"...... i mean. i cant even think of that right now.. with those 5 points, i still think its not enuf.. my gaji is only ~$2k... (belum deduct CPF lagi) how am i gonna survive? haha.. makan money is not enuf man~ i eat alot u know.. haiya...

so how?? any financial consultants want to help me?? ooops.. i mean *FREE financial consultants*...

Anyone?????

yooohoo?????????????????????????

plzzzzzzzzzzz?????????

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-23T11:12:00.000+08:00

I GOT THE JOB.. haha.. u can call me Sergeant Shila now.. ahaha.. wooo~~ n oh, if ure sick, don hesitate to call 995 ok! haha.. n i'll b right at your doorstep!! *evil smile* huahuahua..

anw.. yesterday was our anniversary! 22nd May 2007 was our 3 years anniversary.. yea.. it was best la.. hehe.. kent ridge park, swensens, night safari..hehee.. i love him..

2007-05-14T16:11:00.000+08:00

if u think uve seen the world, lemme tell u this... uve haven seen anything at all.. our life seems to be so "normal" every single day.. some people go to work, n some go to schools.. u walk run eat sleep etc.... but have u ever thought what other people are encountering? the past 5 days have really opened up my eyes on a lot of things.. so do you get to see death everyday? well i do.. things like these really makes me wonder how selfish i am living my own life without bothering about other people.. theres a LOT of sick people living around us n i don seem to know about it.... well i guess this is the time i have to face it.. if u think u have a cool job dealing with fashion stuff or whatever, wait till u see what i do at work.. running around saving people with acute myrocardial infarctions, holding amputated fingers, crushed hands in machine, throats cut open.. well those are some little things tat i have encountered n they are saved.. n i tell u, the sense of satisfaction is so great, especially wen u look into their eyes, n they are in so much pain, yet they look so brave.. amazing but true..

well it all started wen i was attached to the woodlands fire stn, n wen i stepped into the compound, all that i get were the teases by the flirtacious (is there such a word) fire fighters.. at that very moment, i felt like running/crying/scared???!!! i dono how i felt especially wif the presence of so many guys.. n yes, to those who still do not know, i do have a phobia of men... i hate it wen theres 50 men, n only 1 girl.. i felt so insecure.. but well it turned out to be ok wen i started going out for call after call.. it was an experience of a lifetime.. n i get to meet a lot of people too.. paramedics, medics, fire fighters, nurses, doctors.. there might be politics all around, but the job itself, it is definitely for a good cause.. n oh... u noe the fire post under my blk? i was posted there as well..! haha.. ive never had a job so close to my home before..

so now.. ive passed the final round, (well tats according to the warrant officer la)...i saw e report, n it was all nines out of ten.. WOW~ n now i just have to decide whether to sign on or not... well of course i surely want to sign on, but after talking to a few people, they made me think twice about it..
Paramedics said: "If u love the job, u should sign, but let me tell u that the management sucks n it can make u want to quit.. so you still have time to think about accepting it"
Drivers said: "You should pursue your degree first and enter as a senior officer.. once you enter as a junior officer, it will take you forever to get a promotion.. so dont sign on first."
Fire fighters said: "You should sign on! Then i can see you everyday.. Shila power ar! got number?"

so u see..... im confused actually.. i love the job, but the management or rather the system is going to change.. how drastic the change is, i dont know.. the change could even include more working days, n lesser off days..

OH WELL.. WHAT DO YOU THINK I SHOULD DO?

warehouse sale

2007-04-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

ive never felt tired in such a long time seh.. but its good for me la, coz at least there's a lot of thing occupying my time right now... been doing relief teaching for the past 2 weeks now..it juz so happens tat the teacher is having Tb, so she's on a long MC... its good money plus heart pain la! e kids so annoying.. first few days they seem cute n all.. but as e days go by, wahlau eh... cannot tahan la..HAHA..

oh ya den last fri had to take off becoz i had to go to CDA for the realistic job preview... which is the 2nd last step to get thru it! den we had to go up 4 stories, den carry this guy down (mind u, its NOT A DUMMY OK!), den run the stretcher to the ambulance.. n we did the bloody same thing for 3 times! i tell ya, its damn tiring.. so long i never sweat in the hot sun man~ but its was ok, n e 6 of us got thru to the FINAL ROUND! finally~~~~! haha... n the final round, i will be assigned to a fire stn, den work for 5 days... if i make thru after the 5 days observance, den i will be officially in.. hehe.. INSYALLAH... so guys, pray for me ok..

now more on the cool stuff, yesterday went to Crown Prince Hotel for the UK brands sale..WAREHOUSE, TOPSHOP, TOPMEN, MISS SELFRIDGE, DOROTHY PERKINS, ETC.. it was FUN FUN FUN!!! hehe.. thanx wawa for e recommendation.. n yes, finally rai n wawa n me went out together after a long time! plus wan tat is.. so yar.. spent a few hours there, n i bought 3 WAREHOUSE stuff worth $367! wee~ ummm, but i paid only $87.. ahha.. coz one of the dress mahal sikit la kannn...lets do it again girls...

hmm.we've had disagreements for too long now.. u noe wat im talking abt..n yes, u wudnt like it if i blog abt it..but who else can i turn to right? ure unreasonable, im selfish..watever it is..n u shudnt hav given me tat face in front of my frens yesterday.. well now i noe how u feel.. well thanks for telling me.. its gonna be a different relationship now.....................................

2007-04-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

well well well.. guess wat.. im still UNEMPLOYED! haha.. haiz... im juz rotting my ass at home man..

oh ya.. last tues went to naval base sec to do make up for their SYF.. had to wake up like really early n go to their school.. i swear i was half awake wen doing their makeup... haha.. but the MacDonald fillet-o-fish actually woke me up a lil though.. HAHA.. but my dear frens wawa kakak ad n tert are still hungry after doing the makeup, n so the 4 of them SHARED A SMALL BOWL OF MEE SOTO.. HAHAHA.. they were like gobbling the whole thing down, bcoz we tot that we were late for the bus.. padahal padahal.. haha.. the kids are still like taking pixies n all.. haha.. so yah..we t to UCC with them, wished them luck, n watched most of the schools.. from Z to A.. but we stayed only till Cedar girls.. n why did we stay for Cedar, bcoz its azhar's first school choreography, n to find that 50% of the steps are similar to our MICA performance.. but oh well.. its ok.. good job azhar.. as for naval base, it was a surprise tat they got bronze seh.. WTH kan... haiz.. even NJC is DAMNNNNNN GOOOD, got a bloody bronze.. wat the hell is the with the JUDGES????!!! $%^&*(....blind pple i guess... ok ok.. all in all, im disgusted with the results...

ooo yeah.. last thurs went to qihua pri to do relief teaching again... english n maths.. wen i reached the skoo, it was shocking to find the kids wearing TRADITIONAL COSTUMES??!! haha.. for a moment, i felt lost sehh.. i mean.. its not racial harmony day wat... hahah.. but found out its e International Friendship Day bullshit... haha.. but the kids are sooo cute...as always... next mon to wed hav to do relief teaching again but morning session.. DAMMIT! haha.. well i guess these relief teaching has been helping me to fill up my pocket a lil bit.. so yah... haha..

anw, planning to go sentosa tmr.. with wawa n fareed, n maybe wan..he's kinda sick.. get well soon baby.. hope the rain doesnt stop us tmr.. if not, go shopping at VIVO lorrr!! hahaha..

its a BORING saturday..

2007-04-07T10:23:00.000+08:00

hola... well well.. amazingly, the past week has been busy for me.. so long haven been this busy.. HAHA.. ok to start off, i had relief teaching at woodlands pri.. had to take over my sister's class coz she was on 2 days mc.. it was so last min ok... but i had fun meetin those kids.. adorable.. simply cute.. P1 kids are so adorable.. they are so willing to help me with carrying the stuff, and i love doing reading with them! hee.. danial qistina iffah danish etc.. simply nice kids... muax.. n oh.. they gave me stickers n drawings (which to me are rubbish!heheheh) but i really appreaciate them... then come the P5 kids.. tehy are uber smart... smarter than me i guess.. coz my malay not good mah... so yah the P5 pretty much handled themselves really well.. didnt do much with them... n marc n hakim, thanks for sharing the lame jokes with me.. haha... n oh.. the P5 are the only ones who realized that cikgu shila n cikgu siti are SISTERS! haha.. then the P3..a bunch of umm how shud i put it eh.... they are not so smart kids la.. so yah.. it was pretty hard teaching them.. then there's the cutie in the class, arman shah putra... n the weakest one in class too.. kids bully him..i really pity him.. so yah relief teaching if GREAT la.. easy money too! haha. 65 per day.. so worth it la.. ok enuf of that, next i has a 3 day work at suntec exhibition with all the big marine comapnies.. mine was the Seatrade;Overseas MEdia Representation thing.. i had to jaga the jackpot machine thing.. its a mini casino going on there.. haha.. but its fun.. pple won lots of prizes.. cameras wine etc... but we, the staff, got to shoose the prizes.. so the boss gave me $500 mary chia vouchers, radios, drinks, n many more..it was a great 3 day work.. get to meet lots of rich pple... my boss even offered to give me her prada handbag!! toobad i say dowan lorr.. hehe...so yah.. tats all..

n oh! john little sale is on at eh expo! went ther yesterday n i shopped for lots of lingerie! cheap cheap triump stuff... A MUST GO OK!! pretty casements going at 10 bucks.. n oh.. then there's the branded stuff sale.. i bought this (or rather my sis bought for me) tomy hilfiger top... its very nice!! hehe.. but i think the material abit like towel seh.. but its nice.. really.....

ok la... tu je...

2007-03-27T17:07:00.000+08:00

Long lost frens are now coming back in my life.. damn i miss them.. they've graduated... moved on... everybody changes alot! sheesh~ cant believe it... so yah... n again.. as always im damn bored.. i miss dancing so much.. its been a month now i didnt dance.. haiz... i think im goin this fri.. yeap.. surely will.. haha.. hope so...

n oh.. tmr is the interview.. dono wat to feel seh.. haha.. scared? haiya.. oh ya.. i need to get my license real soon.. the other day i was at labrador wif my darling irwan shah... n yea couples go there romen romen.. haha.. but guess wat we did.. i was having my driving lessons at labrador!! haha... there's a big space at the carpark there.. so there i was driving his mum's car.. *i hope she won't get mad!!!!*.. as always, i hated manual, n there i was driving a manual car... it was damn tiring.. but my baby is so sweet.. he keep on saying "jgn brake mcm gitu syg".. HAHAHA.. coz i always did the jam brake.. hahah..sori baby... he's such a great instructor to me!!!thankiu~~ can i hire u darlling?

2007-03-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

ok here goes.. updates.. hehe.. ohh wait.. i miss all my frens in school seh.. y?? bcoz ive GRADUATED!!!!!! so yahh... ehehhe... so yah ive been damn f%^&^& BORED at home..... its been more than a month now... all i do is sit at home n get myself real bored....so bored that i could eat myself up... haha.. i need a job... BADLY...any job will do.....hahahahah.. wookie speaking of jobs.... do u noe tat i dropped out of the SIA interview? not that they don want me okkkk... hahaha... i was forced to drop it..... by who?............................................................. MY MUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... it was so sad.... i was so near to the end...... i could smell it oreadi...... but my mum just don like it.... haiz... its ok laaa.... n oh.. kakak n diana got thru the final round! good luck babes! i swear i noe u can surely do it!! hehe....
so yahh.. SIA no luck... but guess wat... i got thru the next paramedic interview... woooow~ cant wait..... hope i can make it thru though.. *pray for me k*
hmmm.. ohh 22nd march.. my lovely anniversary.. fun fun.. cant wait... 2 more months to my 3 years anniversary.. hehe..

ok la... tats all..back to my reality boring life now..... *POOF*

2007-03-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

y is everything so slow these days???!! haizzzz #$%^&*(*#$%^&*

ANW.. went to the SIA second interview yesterday at the sheraton hotel... i muz say there are loads of hopefus girls there.. AND... so pretty and hot n THIN.. haha.. n so i was invited for the uniform fitting and 2nd interview.. went ther wif kakak.. but my baby sent me of course.. haha.. den we pick kakak up from newton mrt, and only realizing the hotel was right next to the mrt... HAHA... so yah.. den went in... reached 12 plus.. but they made us wait till 1 plus... wth hell rite.. so yah.. wait n wait... den finally get into teh room... oh yah..diana is there too.. me kakak n diana in the same grp... yeay~~ den den.. we tried on the SIA kebaya lor.. i tell ya... its either too small or too big... haiz.. wth.. goodness.... haha.. oh well.. den once we tried, we had to do a walk, den holding trays n bull%^&.... den we had to stand in this bright lights like in a photoshoot.... and they checked our complexions! haha... once everybody in my grp was done. we waited for the results... haha... anxious man... n so it is... me n kakak n diana n a few other chi girls gt to the next part.. which is the 2nd interview... the others who didnt make it went home lor.. haha.. den went to teh interview.. a cute guy interviewed me.. so yah... juz talk nonsense all teh way.... haha.. den had to read a stupid passage... den suddenly he said.. ALRIGHT, IM GONNA PUT U TO THE NEXT ROUND!!! hahaha.. so yea.. i made it to the nex round.. the 3rd round, which is the water confidence test... dammit im gonna failllllllll... haha.. after the 3rd will be the final one.... i hope kakak cud get in... for me.. i dono... im still wondering y the hell am i joining SIA.. haha... really...oh well..

enuf of SIA.. next thing on the list, is SCDF interview... for teh paramedic specialist.. yeay~~~ they called me up to come down for a stimulation test this wed... haha.. i dono wth it is man... so scary.... den come fri, teh water confidence test for SIA.. gosh... so many things packed in one..

tmr: collect passport
wed: paramedic interview
thurs: performance at fort canning park
fri: SIA third round interview
sat: graduation dinner
sun: rest!!!! hahaha

ohhhhhhh!!! speaking of graduation... went for a lil shopping wif the gorgeous babes.. wawa n rai... MAN!!!! i love it... went looking for nakeup n stuff.. n so i bought a loreal eye colour pallete (Star Secret Eyes) @ $19.90, an osmose white silky top worth $39, and an osmose's gorgeous black silky dress pants worth $39 too!!!!! n ohh.. the osmose stuff are on sale.. 50% off!! so had them at $19.50 each.. totally worth it. n so nice too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz .. cant wait to put them on, on grad day.. JUST THAT...haiz.. i hav 2 invitations...

but..................................nobody wants to go.. i wanted my mum to go... but she has this 'lemas' problem wen there are a lot of people.. so she's not coming... haiz.. dad's working... sis busy at workshop...... so there goes... im gonna be family-LESS on grad day... F*** %^&*()!!!!!

haiz................ oh well.................................................................................. who wants to be my family on grad day????

2007-03-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday, at 7.43 pm, i turned 20.. not tat im proud of it.. it juz wasnt nice.. e day was not nice.. it doesnt go well.. at all.. i never knew wat went wrong.. so it started wif going out wif him... n went to mad jack for lunch.. well the food is nice.. n he surprised me wif the lovely river island bag, and e cake.. now tat was lovely... n it ends ther.. after it began to rain, n everything went wrong.. we were not on good terms wif each other, n had to stop at a few places for shelter.. wen we tried to move off, the rain started picking up again, n had to find another shelter... tat was not cool at all.. so i had to take a cab n went to his hse.. n he ride his bike home in the rain.. my poor baby.. den went to his mum's school to take his mum's car.. n still raining... it sux... den went to vivo.. to find tat we had to cash to catch a movie.. n finding the bloody ATM is damn sucky.. so we gave up .. n didnt catch any movie... n went off..

haiz....

n he kept scolding me, n we fought n fought... n i felt tat e whole journey my face was wet wif tears.... ther were moments of silence.. there were moments he felt like smashing into teh bus in front of us.. there were moments he slammed his hands on the steering wheel... n i was crying all the way... den wend to henderson cc.. to bmw npc.. to collect his stuff.. den went to west coast mac drive in... bla bla.. all e way.. still fighting... till i reach home.. haizz... happy 20th to me..

thnx for e lovely bag..

i love u still...

valentines

2007-02-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

oh ya.. forgot to update about valentines.. hee.. oh actually.. i don celebrate valentines la... on teh 14th feb 2004, tat was wen i first met irwan shah.. the first look.. the first words.. his first words were.. "eh mata lawa" hahhahhaa.. it was at pizza hut.. we were both working.. i was new then... he was rider, n i was service crew laaa. hehe.. so sweet.. he ask me out.. but i was like... errr tak tau malu seh jantan ni.... ahha.. n i hated him for a few months.. den fell in lup.. heheheh. ape jeee!! menyampah seh romantic2 ni..

haha.. oh ya.. on 14th feb 2007 pulak, we had a date. n i ordered some cuppies for him..n for the first time, he bought me A BOUQUET OF FLOWERS.. 3 pink roses... which signifies 3 years which we met each other... hee. so sweet rite my darling.. haha... den i told to bring bike coz da lame mah tak naik moto.. but den he drive.. which is much better laa.. hhehehe. i love cars more.. hehehe. *hint hint* buy ur own car laa!!! hehe..

love u beng beng..

2007-02-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

ive officially graduated now.. now my life is all about looking through at the Recruit page of the newspapers.... its not doing any good though.... i still cant find a job... not even a temporary one... soo anybody out ther who got lobang for temporary jobs, plz inform me oooookieee... for now, SIA uniform fitting and 2nd interview will b on the 4th march.. i really don feel like going... i dono y.. i don want them to say "ure toofat", "ure too whatever laaa"... haiz..... its the uniform fitting!! i don think i can fit them laaaa! haiz... benn VERY VERY BUSY AND TIRED LATELY....

firstly, to my dearest irwan shah, im sorry to hear about the bad news... a loss of a family member is one of the worst things ever that could happen in one's life... tuhan lebih menyayangi tok yah.... i still remember wen i was at the hospital, he keeps on asking everybody to giv me some food..wen im not even hungry... he was such a caring grandpa... even tho he's not my grandpa, i feel he treats me like one of his own... so i know dear, u feel much worse... u cried (hee).. because u love him... just be strong ok baby.. arwah tok yah will always be remembered....

ok soo..

today was my adek sedare's tunang day... selamat bertunang my dearest zakiyah... n yeah she's 18.. haha.. damn young.. so yah.. very tiring la.. i was like her mak andam the whole day... she look so pweeety seh... so yah... it was soo hot.. with all the beatiful hantaran n all.. cool man~ den wait wait wait.... for the guy side to come.. LAMBAT ar!! wah lau ehhhh.... den the people who came were like ummm the biker guys... the grp is "sahabat" or something.. haha... i saw their baju laaa.. like whatever... but the ring is sooo nice... heee.... congrats zakiyah n farhan aka a'an...oh ya... the fun part was rite at the end... the guy side gave lots of hantaran! haha mainly food laa... but errr.. nothing much for e girl sehh.. (tat tym wan fren got a load of Mac makeup la!!) oh ya.. anw.. the hantaran a'an gave... e whole family was fighting for it laa! hahah... we were supposed to seprate them equally... but it turned out to be.. sape cepat dia dapat!! hahaha.. wif all the makciks kecoh2.... ahhaha.. so funny sehh.. but in the end my mum got to take a lot of things la.. cakes, sweets, chocs, fruits, n moreeeee sweetss.. n i really mean ALOTTTT!!! hehe.. gosh.. so tat was the end.. congrats again darl...

so yah.. now damn tired.. but tmr got bbq pt at east coast... haiz... so damn tired.. going tmr.. going back on tues.. find work on wed... den tarian n tarian.. den repfuse chalet... wahlau... so packed ar my schedule...

anw i miss him... i feel bad for him seh.. i had fun n all.. den he's like suffering alone.. im sorry la dear.. u had to werk n all.. take care, try to catch some rest oookie.. hehe.. ookie..la... be strong darl..

missing school... ape se~

2007-02-09T09:33:00.000+08:00

[this was wat i posted on the RepFus3 blog]

arlooo~ hi girls.. hee.. i hav only 2 more days of school in Republic Polytechnic and then i'll be graduating!!!! its so great to think that im finally graduating after 3 long years... but then... i'm definitely sad to leave u girls behind.............haiz~

For me, being in RP has always been dance dance and dance... my mum, my family, and even my bf were worried that i focused too much on dancing rather than my studies... but its my passion.. the thing i love most... dancing....

I still remmber how i entered the room in tanglin campus being the only tarian girl in yr 1... then there were 4 other senior girls.. lynna ham zuzu n yaya... n rizal was e instructor then.. i came for the first prac.. den ther were 3 other girls from my intake.. yan naz and shahira.. so we had one or two performance, and they were gone.. so it's left me all alone again.. of coz wif the 4 mango girls too... haiz~ being the only junior wasnt nice... having rizal was not nice too.. haha.. but ther' another guy.. umm abu... he's nice.. but he tought the guys only.. got arip mus and @sri..*ehem ehem*... oh well.. the only achievement in my yr 1 is tat i get to fly off to pakistan together wif arip wif some other dancers to represent singapore... other than tat, yr 1 was nothing much......... so yeah... i think i survived for one semester with them, then there came kakak wawa isha and nunu into the tarian grp! yeay~~~ it was bez la... finally got more gals from my intake... hehe... then my next mission was to kick rizal out coz he wasnt producing any substance to the group.. *sori eh rizal parrot*..............................

In my second year, i was soo excited to get more girls into the group.... so we had a few... but the only ones left are
Fadila *i tot she was mina wen i first saw her, loves to eat chocs.... best dancer in our grp i muz say..*,
Azrina * e gal who always talks alot, and will ask ALOT of questions, but i love her still* ,
Adila *she is e sweet, loves mango tops girl*,
Sue tertle *e girl wif lots of slippers/shoes that i love and not forgetting butterflies too*....
they were a great bunch of girls... love u girls.....

Then cikgu fathurahman finally joined RP, and we had a blast!!!!!! He brought us up like FIRE!!! Thankiu cikgu for all the experiences and achievements u did for us~And because of u, we were the champions for Juara Tari.. proud of u and the girls...!!

Then comes my final year in RepFus3...... initially, me wawa n kakak keep on saying tat we will stop.... but we cant seem to stop going to dance... it has become more of a therapy session for me.... wen i go for dance practices now, all i did is to let everything out...my emotions my thoughts into dance.. n yes.. this is the year wher there are more girls who joined us.. there's
Bedah *the girl who always help me buy body shop stuff... love u darl*
Liyana *she has a bad habit ehem ehem , n dance really really well..*
Adek *e girl who has the sweetest voice ever, love making cuppies.. love u my adek*
Shikin *she has no experience in dance b4, but is doing extremely well now!!*
Husniyah *she's quiet.. hee... malu agaknye dgn i..*
Irma *e girl who always comes late for tarian..hehe*
Nang Naq *she's a girl full of commitments.. love ya*
Ju *she loves to use the word coba..*
Jannah *my gosh she's e sweetest girl*
Niza *she's the on & off girl*
Fatin *too bad she's gone*

I tell ya... i'm really gonna miss u guys ok~~ *sobs* *sobs*... plz... i hope i would still hav a place in your heart, RepFus3... plzzz..??

On behalf of wawa n kakak, we really hope RepFus3 will go on .... so far......... and make the school proud......

I guess that's all for now.. and ohh.. kakak n wawa my partners in crime.... i love u guys too... will never forget u guys... muax....hehe..

sorry for the long posting...

Lotsa hugs, love, and kissess,

Lala WaLauWe.. :)

macaroni and food colourings

2007-02-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

MACARONI AND FOOD COLOURINGS!!! FUN FUN FUN~~ hehe .. not gonna elaborate more.. but i juz love getting my hands dirty doin these things.. haha... AND its for a good cause~ ehehhee.. weee~ WAIT N SEE~

counting down~ 3 more schooling days.... n its over~~~~

oh ya.. he juz called me to say someone is drowning at sentosa... haha.. DO YOUR WORK LA POLICMAN~~ WaLauWe~~~~~ haha.... i tot wat only..... wen a guy calls, u have to at least say sweet things!!! not report to me what is happening at your working area!! hahaha.. oh well.. miss u la darling.. HAHA

WAIT AND SEE~~~

OMG

2007-02-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

OMG! i almost forgot how to blog.. first, i forgot tat the site is www.blogger.com.. next forgot my password..dammit.. haha.. oh well!! i think i have loads to blog abt now!!! this is so exciting!!!!

umm.. first up, graduation is coming REAL SOON!!!!!! can't wait!!! yeah man~~~

n so we had the high tea yesterday at goodwood park hotel for the Biomedical science students... N I TELL YA IT WAS A BLASTTTTTTTTT~~ keke.. but the part when they told us about the non-halal food, that SUX.. my sis ask me to complain.. but oh well.. hehe.. N OH!! I ATE VEGETABLE SPRING ROLL!! irwan shah, do u hear tat!!! VEGETABLE!!!! wooo~~ it was nice.. hehe... oh, did i mention i was the FIRST guest to enter??!! haha.. together wif e 2 babes, a guy, and a shithead.. haha.. it was fun fun fun!
now tat was saturday fun..

e day before, fri, was one of my "shaky" days.. haha... basically, e whole day i was shaking coz im sooooooooooooooooo scared! i was thinking abt the interview all the while.. i didnt wana gooo... i didnt think i can get in at all.. it was a Singapore Airlines interview for goodness sake! sheeeeesh~ so yeah.. went home after klas, n fir motivated me to goo.. yeah man.. den some of them told me to change becoz i wasnt formal... so headed home, and changed into a dress!! did hair n makeup, n there i was, going for to e interview.. hahaha... shithead... haha... bla bla bla.. it was a group interview.......................................................................................................... n im still shivering..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
n finally, i was shortlisted! out of that group, i was e only one shortlisted!! hehe.. kakak made it tooo!!!! weeee~~ muax~~ hahaha.. oh well.. so relieve my tension, i went to therapy class... but i couldnt do the therapy coz i tak bwk baju la!! hehe. so i juz watched.. n my darling baby, it was sooo nice of him to fetch me.. den we drove off to town in search of a prezzie for his darling sis... but as always, he don't noe wat to buy... guys are always like dat... HAHA.. den yeahh.... didnt get anything at all, den went to fetch his 2 sisters n 2 frens..... he was like a taxi driver on tat day la!!!! haha... n so he sent each of the frens home, n then me, n the 3 siblings went home happily ever after... haha.. irwan shah taxi driver... HAHAHAHAHA...

then... hmm... wat else ehh.. oh yahh... coming up, graduating dinner aka masquerade nite on 10th march, and graduation ceremony on 13th!! aiyahh.... cant wait la..

n oh... 4th feb, HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY IYLIA ASHIKIN!!!

n 5th feb, HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO KAKAK!!!!! hehehehe... muaxxxxxxxxxxx!!

*i miss u bad I.S*

wow

2006-08-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

ooh wow~im back~ to the blogging scene.. HAHA.. weird~ alrites now.. take care all~ come back for more upcoming stories!! haa~

chinablack

2006-02-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

chinablack turns out to be great! well it started really boring.. really.. e contest.. sux... e "babes" were UGLY!!! yucks.... but wen e dance floor opens up.. things started to get better... much better.. one thing though.. i hate alam.. damn him.. for grinding me in front of wan... fuck u alam... oh well.. den dance dance dance all nite... it was sooo much fun! me , my darling irwan, arip n his gal, lynna, suhaila, baby , zack, fir n gals.. n many more!! so so cool... den....ehehe... ehem ehem... i love e nite.. thx my darling.. muackz.. i love u!

me_dia

2006-01-29T12:54:00.000+08:00

alrriteys.. update update!! weee~ yesterday me n wan met up wif kakak(dian) n boyfie in town to have late lunch early dinner... wanted to sakura.. but closed due to the eve of chinese new yr.. so yea.. had to make do wif burger king~~~ den after dat went to watch "Me_Dia", a malay interactive drama @ Victoria Theater... well, its a good theater but honestly, i don't understand some parts of it la.. haha.. so ya.. to rate, i'd give 7.5/10.. oh ya.. did i mention, abg hensem aka abg yid aka cikgu rahman's nephew is in the show too... whahah.. great job! n oh.. marina yusoff too.. great job! overall, it was a job well done! congratz! den after tat decided to go to arip's work place, tcc@ pS.. wawa baby n all supposed to join us but since they took public transport, they decided not to go coz its too late.. so left me wan kakak n boyfie coz we got private transport.. haha... so yea... drinks, cheesecake n wedges were on the house!!!! weee~ HAHA... thnx arip!! e wedges were awesome tat i had to bring some home! haha.. den after we chilled we went off n were juz on time to catch e fireworks @ marina @ midnight sharp..they were having some chinese new yr thing, so yea.. tats y got fireworks.. so we stayed for a while n enjoyed that moment.. HAHA... it was nice la.. after all tat went home.. SLEEP...haha.. nice day indeed.. thnx darling.. muacks.. LOVE U!!

*im LUCKY to have u my love*

darling bdae n open house

2006-01-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

wow! updates now!! it was a hell of a weekend! weee~ well i shud say it was one of ma best weekends eva... woohoo~ here's wat happen..

sat (14th jan): Open house @Woodlands campus

we had a performance named "extension of beauty" or "tari elok rupa".. yeap.. we basically did a contemp dance and used a mask and a fan as props.. it was e best dance choreographed by cikgu rahman for us...yeap.. tats wat i think.. i love this dance.. alot.. pple say it was great.. so yea.. hehe.. oh yeah.. den my baby came to watch e performance.. den we went to sembawang n had pizzahut for dinner... oh yea. did i mention we took LOTS of pics?? hahah.. update e pics later ok...

sun (15th jan): my baby's 21st birthday...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MY ONE AND ONLY PRECIOUS BABY IRWAN SHAH!!! weee~ may all ur wishes come true and semoga panjang umur.. i love u dear... muacks! muacks! sori i had to lie to u dear.. hehe.. yea.. he was supposed o fetch me in woodlands... but i surprised him by fetching him under his blk laa.. hehe.. sowie dear.. yeap.. den we went to town to have lunch... den went to catch a movie.. oh ya.. e best part is.. opening his prezzies.. hehe.. gave him quite a few.. only u will know... hehe.. muacks.. i hope u love them! coz i love them too! especially e *****!!! hehehe...den we took lots of pics pics pics.. den went to meet his frens at commonwealth n went to pasir panjang eating place and had seafood for dinner... e prawns super nice la!! weee~ muz go eat ther!! very nice!!! den after tat they all go esplanade and chill till morning.. i hope u had a great time darling! coz i really do! hehe.. muacks.. love u many many...

thnx jals

2006-01-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

woookie~ been really bz lately.. been quite a while since i chat wif him.. got lots to catch baby.. ;p tarian is killing me.. open hse is killing me.. gpa is killing me.. pp is KILLING me.. yeap.. so many things la..

oh ya.. thnx jals for the "you-know-i-know" thing... haha.. yeap.. he's e most irritating stubborn but nice fren.. haha.. so yea.. thanx a lot.. i OWE U ONE! thnx again! muackies~

wookie.. sat official start of Open House.. so yea.. do come down yea... 14th - 17th january.. see me dance on ..... sat.. 1pm, 430 pm.. mon.. 1pm.. ok! come find me! haha..

alriteys.. tats all now.. toodledy doos~ missing my baby~

*3 more days to......*

pp is moving!

2006-01-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

finally.. its moving...bit by bit.. thanx beyni for helping out.. yeap.. my PP report.. ive done e cover page.. HAHA.. well hey! at least ive started! tats y im askig beyni for help.. she was e first gal to finish her PP in our batch.. so yea.. learn from e genious.. gona be bz nex week.. dance everyday.. RP OPEN HOUSE coming soon!!! 14 jan to 17th jan .. @Woodlands campus..! do come down! bring all ur frens! and watch my performances!!! hehe.. headache headache now.. miss my baby beng..

*counting down... 7 more days to.....*

first day skoo

2006-01-03T08:38:00.000+08:00

ok i juz reached skoo.. first day.. SUCKS.. super sleepy now.. e irritating ms SOH JYUE TEEEEEEENNNGGGGG is like singing lullaby now..dammit.. immunology sucks.. doink... i wana go home plz...

happy new year! be strong!

2006-01-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

wooo~ 2006 is here!! welcome welcome! wow.. anihoos, ma new year eve was spent somewhere u wudnt wana noe.. haha..wif ma baby of cos..oh well.. but we had fun.. n oh.. i finally have a resolution... me n him were talking at umm 3am plus i think.. n he made me think of a resolution.. so yea.. tats wen i made up ma mind.. haha.. MY RESOLUTION IS TO BE STRONG! haha.. strong in everything.. strong in handling all matters.... coz i noe, 2006 gona be a hectic year for me.. so if it could help me to be mentally strong, im grateful enuf.. haha.. as for him, his resolution is NOT TO BE LAZY.. yeap.. he is one lazy kambeng.. *tsk tsk*... muz learn how to wake up urself now.. so i don need to giv u wakey calls EVERY DAY.. *bluek* tats all for now.. have a great year guys! muackies!

resolutions

2005-12-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

i could really wait till school reopens next week.... dammit....first day of school gona be immunology.. urgh~ sucky module.... wats worst, microbio's UT coming too!! sheeesh~ so tats y , ive been mugging e whole day studying microbio.. haiz.. n MORE worst, MCB's UT coming up real soon.. MCB really sux big time.. i dono if i can make it for MCB.. sheeesh~

n yeah.. 2k5 is gona be gone..forever..i'll miss ya.. lots of memories.. good n bad... yeap.. i hope 2k6 will be a better year, but one thing for sure, i have loads to do next yr.. some of e things listed:
- PPP (Professional Profiling Project)
- FYP (Final year project)
- UTs (Understanding Tests)
- Reports!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (dammit)
- GPA (Gema Puisi Artistik)
- Open House
- Be mentally prepared (wan joining army *sobz*)
- Loads of performances...

e list doesnt stop there.. juz tat i cant take it nemore... typing it oreadi makes me go crazy.. well one thing for sure.. im gona cut down on my commitments.. cant deny i have tooooo many commitments in n outside school... so yea.. i guess its time to halt it n focus on my final year... insyallah...

n yea, wats new year without resolutions rite? F*** it... haha.. resolutions never worked for me.. but hey, juz for e thrill of it, i think my new year resolution is to...... ummmm... hmmm.... forget it....

so yea.. Happy New Year guys!!!! have a great year ahead...

*miss my beng*

leg painnnnnnnnnn

2005-12-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

well the gathering was fun!! even tho some pple did not manage to turn up... or rather what id say bubble us... n some who came uninvited.. n some who came only for a while n den left..n some came n got drunk...nevertheless, i had fun... most spoiledsports left n so its only left with me baby arip n fir... they drink drink then after tat went to play pool.. as always fir always win... *dhush* .... oh ya, did i tell u i fell down while riding e bike? kwang kwang.. so yea... ma knees bleeding badly till now.. n its very pain ok!! cant even walk properly... haiz.... hope it'll get better soon....

*irritated*

who got tent?

2005-12-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

weeee~ cant wait.. tmr goin east coast wif ma dance babes n GPA team.. wee~ anw, who got 8 men tent? or 10 men tent? plz get back to me ASAP!!!! thnx~

*missing u..come back soon*

19th mth anniversary

2005-12-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my 19th mth anniversary wif my one n only wan n phew, it turned out GREAT!! *smile* .. well yea.. we were having a hard time at first... went to fetch him at his skoo... den go queensway to get ma earrings... weee~ den AFTER tat we managed to talk things thru n we're ok liao.. hehe.. sory darling.. muackz.. love u lots.. so yea.. after tat went to swensens for dinner n it was realy such a great time there... thnx for e day darling.. love u lots lots lots... muackies..

oh ya.. he's off to melacca liao... juz now... gonna miss him alot.. come back soon.. take care dear... missssss uuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!

bus accident

2005-12-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

it was a normal bus ride from skoo to town... arip in front of me, kakak n baby behind, wawa crapping beside me, n for me, juz playing wif ma lips... wen suddenly cries of a woman n a slight bump was felt.... yeap.. e bus ran over a lady... to be exact, a DOUBLE decker bus ran over a lady.. Cool huh... den this pakcik came up to us n ask... "dia mati eh?".. n i laughed.. haha..coz e pakcik so cute... but well.. e lady did not die.. legs bleeding, unconscious.. tats all.. cool... i prefer e accident of e crescent girls' student... haha...
so yea.. we had to walk to town all e way.. coz e accident happened somewhere b4 the hard rock cafe's stop... so yea..wat to do.. juz walk la kan... weee~ n tats all..
oh ya.. my hp's dying... help..........help............help.....................................
6 more mins... happy19th mth anniversary to us... urgh~ u don care anw.. everythng juz sux now... thnx...

weee~ park wif him

2005-12-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

hehehehe~ i had a great day wif him yesterday.. weeee~ went to catch e saw2 which was uber gross! (i wanted to watch kingkong la!!)....yea.. den went shopping for his top at topman.. haha... oh ya... they actually SELL the shopping bags??!!! doink* 3 for $1... haha... so yea.. he bought it coz he collects shopping bags mah..... but i took one of cos... nice la... ;p k den walk walk... den he brought me to this place... err.. i dono where... near his workplace.... sweet.. i loiikkee~ hehehehehehe....weeee~ *in lala land*...................................................................................
..................................................................................................................................................
................................................. *ok back*.. weee~ den went to his werkplace...juz rode thru e carpark actually... den patah balik..*doink x10*.. oh ya.. terserempak wif hafiz at e carpark... hafiz used to work with us back then at J.E pizzahut.... n now he's working at e pizzahut BTP la.. yeap... den chat a while... den went off.. weeee~

oh ya.. KL trip was great! some pics for ya guys...

kakak n me~

umm.. @ e train station i think....

hot cuzzies.... weee~

outside KLCC~ weee~

KLCC~

me n zakiah~

@ e hotel restaurant having cheesecake~wee~

me n e orchids!! hehe.. ok tats all.. ;p

ok dah! itu sahaja... ceh melayu... hehe.. oh ya..speaking abt melayu.. muz speak baku la now... for GPA...wee~ haha... wana noe wat RP's doing for GPA? catch us on the 18th feb @ NYJC...weee~ i'll remind ya guys again...

oh ya.... my precious one n only darling baby irwan shah, U OWE ME EARRINGS!! *bluek* bought @ Queensway shoping ctr.... $2.90... beside e tatoo shop.. thnx eh... hehe..well he actually asked y he shud replace the earrings i lost.. ok this is how i lost it... i took off the helmet... n den e right side is lost..dammit.. but he didnt want to replace it coz he said its MY earrings, its MY helmet, its MY ear.. n i took it off MYSELF.. *doink* so guys, don u think he STILL have to replace it? haha..... oh well... i want new earrings!!!! *bluek*

*i love u*

dammit

2005-12-08T19:03:00.000+08:00

ma fever goin up again...dammit
vommiting...dammit
cough...dammit
cant sleep...dammit
he cant tok coz he's too sick...dammit
goin KL soon...dammit
gonna miss him.. dammit (x100)

sicko

2005-12-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

dammit.. sicko.. hate to b sick... fever's goin up n down e whole day... wats worse, nobody wana accompany me go doc... but thnx to mr beng.... i made him go to e doc wif me at nite.. hehe.. love u mr beng... weee~ doc say i muz sleep alot.. hmmzz. but too bad doc.. ive been having sleepless nites these past few days.. n its irritating me.. haizz.. lets hope i can sleep soundly tonite.. =p oh ya.. to ma darling, plz take care of urself k... coz he oso sick mah.. hehe.. sori if i passed any virus to u in any way... hehe.. hmm.. anihoos, juz do take care of ur health k dear? n oh oh... i wana get betta QUICK! coz this weekend im goin KL to shop shop shop!!! weee~ ma mum say i can go there n shop sampai jadi giler.. haha.. take care all who are sick.. =p

*miss my baby*

SHooPING!!

2005-12-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

wooo~ shopping was great juz now!! weee..... went to shaw hse, taka, cineleisure, behind cineleisure got e lime thingy, then esplanade! n im sure its makes me wawa n rai go CRAZZZZZZZZZYYYYYYY!!!! wooo~ ehhehe... lets see.. some of the recent things ive bought.. e "beautiful face" top, e junk top (so chix!), freshbox bag, a beaded necklace, n e guess bag (thnx to wawa!!).. weeee~ muackies!! i looooiikkeee!! umm... wanted to buy e volcom purse! so chix! but.. better not spend too much! nanti mama marah.. =p n oh darling.. sowie didnt buy u anything.. hehe.. cant resist to buy stuff for MYSELF la!! hehehe.. more shopping yet to be done at KL.. weee~ toodles now~

(p.s. more pix uploaded.. http://missystylish.multiply.com )

*lets do it again darlings!!*

marriot hotel

2005-12-02T17:50:00.000+08:00

sori chee hoo i had to leave class early.. its too pain, i cant take it.... see u next term.. ;p

as i sit in the train all alone juz now.. i suddenly laughed to myself, with people thinking i might be crazy.... =p well, i suddenly rmmbred abt e other day wen i was at Marriot Hotel wif wan... kwengz... well it was fun.. haha.. something other pple or rather couples wud do... well it was kind of obscene... but oh well.. tat is wat i call arts appreciation... wen u guys are bored.. do check out Marriot Hotel's paintings... juz look at them carefully n u'll noe y... me n wan had much fun interpreting the paintings... we simply hooted at every bit of it... =p all this while i passed by the paintings i wasnt aware of it at all... next time i pass by the paintings, im gona rmmbr tat wonderful moment i spent wif him n e paintings.. haha.. ;p

* i hate my bez fren*

weee~ neoprint!!

2005-11-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

wee~ had a great day wif him today! ;p thank u darling.. muax.. anw... "fetched" him from his skoo den went off to town for dinner.. ma all time fav from Sakura... e pandan leaf chicken! yum yum!! those who've not tried it, its a MUST TRY!! very nice ;p... den went walk walk.. shop shop... den went to take neoprint!! wee~ haha.. so long neva take neoprint... i loiikkkeee~ den after tat wanted to chill at starbucks.. but den da kena tembak plak... so decided to go home b4 it rains... don wana get home wet again.. sheeesh~ =p anw darl.. bout e deal.. haha.. forget it... *bluekz*
weee~ me n wan... wif a butterfly on ma hair.. =p

mcm posing nk kawin eh? kwengz~

the man i love.....

weee~ i love u dear~

scary!! tetsu!

2005-11-28T13:42:00.000+08:00

juz a short update now... tues, 22nd Nov.. anniversary wif him was very sweet~ i hope u like mr beng n ms bun.. ;p i love u..

sat, 26th nov.. dikir show at melville park.. so fun!! thnx dylz... ;p n oh thnx arip's mum... n thnx arip too.. for once.. i felt so honoured on tat nite... ;p being e guest n giving out the top 3 prizes was COOL!!! hehe..

n oh... to tat someone... juz stop it... its getting SCARY ok!!!!!! arghh!!! i have a bf u noe... so yea.. juz hope we remain as frens?? k?

some pics updated liao... www.missystylish.multiply.com

ok dah.. tats all... tootsey doodle...

*missing u my baby*

haiz.. cancel jln raya..

2005-11-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

HATRED
ANGER
JEALOUSY
LONELY
DAMMIT
WORRIED
HAIZ

raye update!

2005-11-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

wee~ wow.. i miss bloggin.. been bz.. hee.. so yea.. lets updatetos... last week.. hmmz.. thurs to sat forget la...heee.. sun went out raya wif him n his friends.. umm... rabz n daya ma pri skoo mates were there too... ma bf's friend's gals... life can be such a coincidence... ;p anws.. early morning wakey liao~ *dhush*... hee.. but fun la.. tiring.... went to his hse.. n met ibu... weee~ hee.. den go jln jln jln... so penat liao... but den muz go nuris(ma bf's gf) hse at ummm 11 plus... so yeah.. juz tagged along... umm ya la.. tats all.. got some pics wif rabz.. RABZ!! I WANT PIX!! ;p
den on mon had nothing... tues had dance.... theory lesson for tat day... waste my time bring extra baju.. *dhush* but thnx cikgu for e swiss hotel cakes n kfc!!! weeee~ but den watching e dance videos is quite a bore.. den had to evaluate every dance...... sheesh~ oh ya... heard tat cikgu said we're not allowed to join more than 2 sub igs in MCG..... coz nanti tkde concentration... for me, its tarian n dk.. so yea.. tats enuf.. coz he saw how "unfocused" wawa was during the performance.. den he don like it la kan.. tu la wawa..nak jadi SUPERWOMAN eh... hehe.. smua ko nk join.. oh ya!!! ckp psl SUPERWOMAN!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO WAWA N ABG!!! hahaha.. we celebrated last fri wif them... hope u like e surprises.. muackies... n here's a pic to say it all..... ;p
we actually bought for her OVERSIZED BRA N UNDIES.. hehe.. hope u love it wawa.... n also e butterfly slippers (da koyak eh!!!) heeez.. yup.. so tats all.....

cont eh.. yesterday went out wif ma darling n watched Just Like Heaven.. very sweet indeed... hee... anw dear, thnx for going out wif me..... muackies.. love u lots..

n today.. boring...

tats all... wana go doctor liao... stoopid hep b.. see ya guys... muackies!!!!

*ibu.......ibu..............................................*

hari raya concert

2005-11-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

Thank you for making my dream come true... Thank you SRY DYLAILA... Our first ever performance turned out to be GREAT!! Wow... Thank you mamat n abg for making it happen too... Thanks a lot.. Weeee~ im so happy!! but im sori if i shouted or watsoeva to u guys during trainings... ;p But it was a job well done.. Proud of u guys... But don stop there k.. Lots of room for improvement, and more to explore... So yea.. Lets go thru this journey togetha... ceh ceh.. haha... wee~.. rai n adek.. great job.. ;p.. thnx.. love all of u... THANK YOU!

oh ya... but tarian was bad... ma hair dropped off.. *DAMMIT*... n one of ma flowers dropped too.. haiz... URGH~ hating tarian...

Jln raya was GREAT!!! weee~ all 27 of us.. so fun.. so gerek... so wooohooo..weee~ but so tiring laaa... we ended e last hse at arnd 11 plus i think... den had to send EVERYONE home... so yea... of cos im e final one to be sent home... n so i reached home close to 2am.. dammit.. so tiring... thanx ma darling for accompanying me home.. weee~ love u... n love all e dylz, RepFus3, and e other MCG peeps... weee~ nk raya lagi!!!! ;p

*missing u*

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

2005-11-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOO~ Hari Raya is here!!!! in fact 1st day hari raya is OVER!! weeeee~~~ it is indeed very very very exciting meeting all ma cuzzies and spending time wif them... muackies... love ma family... ;p n yea.. we took LOTS of pics.. so...kak ainah... send to us soon k!!! seriously, it is very exhilirating getting to visit all the houses... six cars and a van.... we travelled all over together... so fun rite.... mcm berderet gitu.. haha.. oh ya.. but one thing for sure...... aunties n uncles should really know their niece or nephews by NOW... or rather RECOGNIZE us.... coz most pple mistook me for being e "39kg @ 20 yrs old sister" of mine..... yea.... so that "39kg @20yrs old sister" of mine is a teacher AKA da keje AKA da tkya dpt duit raya..... so yea... tats how pple mistook me..... n so in e end i don get e money la kan... damn~ well one point to note also... DON OVERDRESS AND LOOK OLD... so yea.... haiz... but thnx "39kg @ 20 yrs old sister" for the 50 bucks duit raya... n also to cik radiah... for e 50 bucks duit raya... haha... u two rox!!!!!! e rest.. ummm.. rox abitz only la.. hehe....

ohh ya! yesterday.. i saw abg ery or rather abg hairi... yea... abg ery budak keranda.... hayat.. if ure reading tis, u shud noe him... ;p so yea....saw him at e int n amazingly he smile at me.. thnx for remmbering me... n yea im surprised to see u... well yea.. i miss e keranda guys.... or shud i not? i dono... to those who dono.... keranda is the pple whom ive been with.... "ma bros n sis la" haha..juz a bunch of peeps who sit under e blok n call themselves keranda?? yea.. so im part of the keranda.. n den gedebak gedebuk, berpisah la lala dari keranda.... panjang story k.. hehe.. so cut shorty morty.... tu je .. i miss them.. i think.. i dono.. maybe not... yea.. i don think i miss them at all... oh well...

wat i noe is that I MISS IRWAN SHAH ALOTZ!!!!! hope ure having a great time there dear.. n take care of urself..... hope to see u soon... thinking of u always.... love u sooooooo muchy muchy!! MISS U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COME BACK SOON!!!!!!

*his lil' sunshine"

first day without him

2005-11-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

WOW!!! 1st day without him was BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN~ haiz.... come back soon dear.. im missing u badly............................. anw.. today... was tiring... went geylang early today to book baju dikir... den walk walk..... speaking of dk... i played e rebana e whole time im at home today.... haiz..... coz i still remembered how mamat said to me.. "siak ar.... hancur siak"...... err..something like tat la kan........ haiz... so i juz had to practice more..... got lots to work on..... sorry dylz... im not one good rebanist anw..... haiz.... life juz sux................... especially without him around.....

*i miss u*

off he goes to kampong......

2005-10-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

he's gone.......... juz a while ago...... n im missing him already..... haiz....... he's goin back to kampong to celebrate hari raya there..... haiz...... take care my darling..... have a safe journey and come back safely too...... do enjoy urself k dear..... haiz.... one week...... without u...... damn~ *sobz*.... *sobz*....*sobz*........................................... come back soon dear... den can go raya wif me k....haiz....... missing u alot... anw thnx for e card.... n e "surprise".......*wink*......... love u dear... Selamat Hari Raya! Ampun Maaf Dipinta.....

n to all ma darling frens out there.... Selamat Hari Raya to u guys!!! Klau ada terkasar bahasa or wat, harap maaf dipinta.... N also halal kan lah eh makan yg korang blanje or wat.. thnx alot... cant wait to go out raya wif creamos RepFus3 Dylz and him of cos... love u all.. muaxx...

Berlalu sudah ramadhan, kini tiba syawal mulia
Sebulan kita berpuasa menahan lapar dahaga
Terdgr suara takbir bergema memecah sunyi di pagi raya
Terkenang daku pada si dia, Berbisik rindu di pagi raya..........

*haru di pagi raya*

Beauty queen of only eighteen

2005-10-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times
but somehowI want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

geylang wif baby

2005-10-27T11:33:00.000+08:00

close to 1am now... juz reached home.. went to geylang... to look for ma third baju raya.. sheeesh~ its really a hard time looking for one.. damn.. i hate to go geylang... so crowded..... so yea.. looked all around.. and finally found one, close to 11... kedai pon da nak tutop seh.. haha.. so yea..bought colour maroon 5... haha.. maroon la kan.... so anyone out there wif maroon??? thnx to ma darling for accompanying me... it was really a hard time for us yesterday.... rite dear? its e worst day ever.... rmmbr e date.. 26th october 2005.....haiz............... oh well... things didnt turn up well at all..... anihoos.... ummm... i dono wat to update sehhh.... cant wait for raya!!! n HRC... deeparaya to be specific.... do come down to watch our performance...watch out for RepFus3 dance... sry dyaila...n e rest.. ;p n oh.... i want potato chips now now now now!!!!!! ;p

*im hungry*

here without u

2005-10-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

presidential visit

2005-10-12T13:59:00.000+08:00

chiakkkkk!! im here again.. ahha.. to update on yesterday's performance...... weeee~ in fact... the WHOLE day was SUPER GREAT!!!!! i had GREAT fun!!! yeay~ basically... e dance was really good... The President was really impressed... ;p yeay~ Sry Puspa Laily.... great job darlings... i love u guys! muackz....!! kompang was great... but tiring... haah..but its ok... den had photo taking session.. weee~ wif The President of cos.... den i think he saw me n wawa one corner wif the kompang.. so he called us over to take pics wif the rest of the group... weeee~ muackz to him.. hahaa... so yea... den went to GEYLANG!!! wif e tarian darlings.. n Mr Ganesh!!!! weeee~ den buka wif them... den walk walk... it was FUN! ;p i loiiiiikkkkee~ n not forgetting... we took LOTS LOTS LOTS of pixxx!!! here's some of them... i'll upload e whole lot of them later aite.... muackies!

7 things....

2005-10-12T13:52:00.000+08:00

Seven[7] things that will scare me...
1.)Allah
2.)Mama
3.)Lizards
4.)Dark
5.)Dr Alvin Teo
6.)Performing
7.)Not being with him anymore

Seven[7] things that I like most...
1.)Dancing
2.)Dikir-ing
3.)Drumming
4.)Sleeping
5.)Dreaming
6.)him ;p
7.)Ma baby

Seven[7] most important things in my room...
1.)Mohamed Ethan
2.)Ma bed
3.)Ma pooh
4.)Ma clothes
5.)Ma fon
6.)Ma mirror
7.)Escada

Seven[7] random facts about me...
1.)LaLa
2.)Shy;p
3.)Lame
4.)Love to dance
4.)Rebanist for Sry Dylaila
5.)Attached to him
6.)Attached to ma creamos
7.)Love to dream ;p

Seven[7] things I plan to do before I die...
1.) Insaf ;p
2.)Get married( Klau ade org nak la..haha..)
3.)Have ma own house
4.)Have ma own car
5.)Perform the Haj
6.)Be a psycologist
7.)Be the best I can ever be

Seven[7] things I can do...
1.)Eat
2.)Sleep
3.)Dream
4.)Dance
5.)Drum
6.)To love
7.)Smile

Seven[7] things I cant do...
1.)Smoke ;p
2.)Drink alcohol
3.)Club
4.)Profanities
5.)Lie
6.)Go back home late.. if not irwan memekak ;p
7.)Skip skoo..(yea rite)

Seven[7] words I say the most...
1.)weeee~
2.)kwengz~
3.)muackies!
4.)love u baby
5.)taking care
6.)miss u
7.)urgh~

Seven[7] celebrity crush...
1.)powerpuff girls??
2.)spongebob squaepants??
3.)Fauzi Laily
4.)(ok its getting harder..i don watch tv or anything)
5.)ummm..still thinking ar
6.)ok two more to go...
7.)yeay...done! haha..

ok rai!! done-ded...!!! weee~

happy bdae abah

2005-10-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

10th October 2005.. a date to remember... ma daddy's bdae....!! n also... irwan's daddy's bdae!! HAPPY BDAE ABAH N AYAH!!! hehe.. love ya guys.. muacks....

ayah.. ur son has been bad.. he still neva call me.. haiz..

i hate u...*bluek*

*cant wait for tues!!*

yeay...busy busy..

2005-10-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

haiz... ma life has neva been busier... so freaking tired sehhh.... no time to rest... oh ya.. e MCG comittee meeting last fri was... ummm... scary?? yea... it is.... cikgu was so scary on tat day.... consider urself lucky for those who didnt turn up..... well... we had to plan for Iftar n we're only left wif less than two weeks?? aiyoo.. no wonder cikgu marah seh... haiz..... e time is such a constraint... n we had another urgent on sat... so yea... we basically finished planning on tat day.. coz we really gota get things moving!!! sheeesh~ kesian tgk welfare n logistics seh.....

hmmm.. performance...in two days! yeay~ hehe... hope its gona turn out well coz we had to practice EVERY DAY seh.... sheeesh~ to ma tarian darlings....do a good job ok on tuesday.... n SMILE!!! haha... i noe u guys are so tired out of e trainings..... so yea.. rest well today ok!! e next performance will be on sun... so yea... work it out...

as for drums... apiz... i juz don understand u... wat were u trying to convey to me??? yes ive not been turning up for drums e past week due to dance, n its really none of ur problem... n who are u to tok to me like tat n scolding me y ive not been turnin up... excuse me... r u e president??? ure NOBODY!!! so fine... next week we'll have trainings EVERY DAY for sun's performnce... HAPPY???? but u wont be able to attend for all... rite...?!! so plz look urself in the mirror b4 u want to tok abt me... thx eh... n one more thing... if i ever find out ure bringing in ur frens into the studio without ma permission again, ure DEAD... u get tat? n oh.... plz eh.. tolong eh... jgn EMO ar... for goodness sake ure a GUY! abe bunga!!! YUCKS! for shazni.... u'll get it from me too... i told u to hold on to e key coz ure e secretary.... n re not supposed to pass it arnd! get it??!! damn u guys... urgh!

seriously, these pple are such a pain in e ass... *breathe in... (immitating dr alvin teo)*...haha.. k now... so yea.... where are u?? huh?? where were u wen i needed u??? busy wif ur work rite??? go on.. go on working... den at nite... where were u??? busy wif ur friends rite... fine...... u don call... or msg.... haiz.... WHY CANT U DO THOSE SMALL LITTLE THINGS A BOYFRIEND WOULD DO????? urgh~

i still love u though...

*haiz....i miss u*

2005-10-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.... first day puase went......ok ok ar.. didnt sahur this morning... coz i canot eat... due to the appointment this morning... so tat shit prevented me from consuming any food within 10 hrs... so yea... woke up at dono wat time... 3 plus, 4 am i think....wanted to eat but cant..... so juz lied down.... eyes open..... damn worried.... he didnt call or msg e whole day.... my calls n msgs left unanswered.... so yea.... haiz..... den fell asleep.......
den follow mumy go pasar at bukit batok..... den went home... den met kakak(dian) to buy the tights for tarian.... went round n round n freaking mabok oreadi...... aiyo... da la tgh worry worry... abe mabok lak tu..... sheesh... den finally found the pants.. so we bought them n off we go..... kakak went home to sleep while i go for ma appointmnt.......
cibeh plak kan.... tunggu peh tunggu... number tk kuar2...... so yea.... waited for like 45 mins at first stop.... 2nd stop.... met doctor.. for like 5mins and had to go next stop and waited for another half n hour..... den finally ma turn! yeay~ haha... cibeh skali lagi.... coz ma veins so small.. first left arm.. den right arm.... den ma right hand... (opposite the palm la...)... wah lau .... tat one freaking pain sia... da la sorang2..... dudok situ step brani... hhahha... so yea.... e nurse wanted to take blood from the hand... so i said dowan punye dowan.. den she tried the right arm again... den nasib baik la kan... even tho e pressure very low, it managed to flow out slowly... weee~done-ded... haiz...stupid hep b....
oh ya... den da penat penat.. pening pening... worry worry..sakit sakit.... e drummers plak sebok... satu satu kolling... asking bout tmr's performane... haiz... so very e pening u noe..... so senang, i juz scrapped off drummers from tmrs hybrid performance... only yuga will stay....sori fauzi fahmy n emma... for backing off last min.... so yea... good luck jammers arena n guitar ensemble for tmrs hybrid.... u guys will do great.... n oh hafiz(singer)... sing well.. haha....

ok la...tats all... to my baby.. call me soon.. im damn worried now... missing him....

*eiy... bsok eh.... ;p missing u...*

2005-10-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

yesterday first day of skoo was fun! haha... unexpected.. but overall, ok ok la... den had dance prac.. 2 hrs non stop without break... damn... i was so freaking tired weak and sick....so had to ask mummy to fetch me home.....................................

juz now skoo ok.. but dr alvin teo.... umm.. he sux.... had full dress rehearsal...hehe.. ok ok ar... n of cos.... UBER TIRED seh....

da tkde ape nk update...

haha..

taking care~
*maroon*

2005-10-02T14:56:00.000+08:00

he got the job...n now he's busy wif his work... DAMMIT.. i hate it... we're gona be bz n no time for each other... DAMMIT (x10)

skoo starting TOMORROW... DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT! sux....... mon after skoo.... tarian... tues after skoo.... dance..... wed off day! yeay~ thurs after skoo...dance + drums.... fri after skoo... dance.... DAMMIT... shux.. its only e first week of skoo, n im oreadi packed..! next tues.. show.... 11th October..... President's Visit to RP... DAMMIT... muz wear indian... DAMMIT!

Updates:

11th October 2005:
What? Presidential Visit..
Venue? Foyer@ RP
Time? Not sure
Dance? Combined Dance

16th October 2005:
What? Pre launch of RP in Woodlands..
Venue? Woodlands Civic Ctr
Time? Bout 4 or 5pm
Dance? Malay Dance (Kopak aka Zapin Dangdut)
Dance? Combined Dance
Drums? 900 dollar piece

So yeah... those are the events that im involved in.. so plz come if ure free.. if ure not free, or ure bz working or something, den don bother to come.....

soo totally not looking forward for skoo!!! damn..

*such a dammit day... hope to see u soon*

2005-09-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

weehoooo! hehz...lets update! yeay~ hehz... first..ape eh.... ummm.. met him on tues.. i think.. haha.. juz chill chill.. went to watch movie! at his skoo ar.. haha... bout soccer n dance... a combination of our interest... hehz.... nice show ar.... den went to e SIM cafe and accompanied him eat... n i had my all time fav.. RIBENA!! i love ribena.. haha...

see...check it out...e cup itself says "i love ribena".. ;p
Up close n personal wif e man...

Weeee~ den went ot wif my dear cuzzies last wed me zakiah hidayah shika kak jaja kak nurul sharil fadali n wan ..... movie outing!!!! CORPSE BRIDE!!! a must watch!!!! its so nice.. so touching.. so funny... hahah...id rate...7.5/10... so yea.. den had lunch wif them.. at kfc.. lots of food!!! n b4 goin in to theatre, we bought MORE food!!! haaha.. nachos popcorn kacang putih corn n lots more!!! gosh! im seriously freaking buncit e moment i step out of the theatre.. haha.. anw.. had so much fun wif ma cuzzies... love ya all...

fadali zakiah n me!
wan n zakiah...
zakiah me shika hidayah..... n fantastic four! haha..
Lunching at KFC!!

Phew!!! after the movie, i rushed off to NUS for the "Something About Melayu" drama show.... it SUPERB!!! id rate 8.5/10!!! it has a great story line..... very very nice... saw abu aka shan there too... he was in the play la.... haha but its really really nice la... i loiiiikeeee! hehz.. some pics b4 show...

wawa baby me otw to NUS!!!
Mine n wawa.. haha... look at my baby finger over wawa's... HAHAHA!!! loving seh...
us again again....
wawa n me! m lovely girl...ahha..
yeay..........................haha..

ooookie doookie tats all for now!!!! muackies!!

*damn.. skoo starting in 2 days!*

wow..cool time..

2005-09-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

WOOOOHOOOO~ so long neva bloggy bloggy.. hehz... so many things happenin... so busyyyy!! weeee~ but oh .. i had fun... LOTS OF FUN!!! lets see.... forgot most of the stuff i had.... haha... but i do remmber tat day... or rather tat nite.. or rather tat morning... hehz~ it was like wooooowww! well of coz... spent tat beloved nite... or rather morning.. wif ma one and only lovely precious baby irwan shah...... n yeah... it was GREAT.... dinner, pool, movie, booze, n *****************... hahaha.. i dono wat e hell tat is la actually... oh well... overall.. it was FUN! i love my darling! muackies.... n im missing u badly now....*boohoo*....

ok........ den wat else eh....... i totally forgot wat i did for the rest of e week.. oh well...
oh ya..... went to Malay Culture Awareness @Admiralty CC... to support lanang of coz... kwengz~it was great ar.. won lots of prizes...! haha.. lucky draw babe.... kan baby kan? hehe.... lots of pics... upload them later........ coz its wif wawa.... n yea.. e dk... ive never seen.. e awok2... there were more than 30!!!!! gosh... but the spontan was damn good..... really good.. great job....

k den went tarian juz now...... den had the official new commitee for our tarian members.. weee~
fadila..gona assist me in my assist....umm..assist me in my assist? haha..oh well... she's gona be e assistant head tarian..yea.... den azrina gona be our secretary... adila n suhaila gona be the logistics!! weee....done! welcome welcome~ hehz~

oh ya, hav i told u a black cat kejar me this morning? scary sia.... even wen im boarding e bus, it was like clinging on to me... urgh~ sux... ok la.. tats all.. happy sweets day wawa!! hehz~

*the sweetest thing ever is to wake up beside the man u whom really love...e smile on his face could tell you its gona be a great day ahead...i love u irwan..*

2005-09-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

weeee~ 2nd sem modules for higher are students are OUT!!! my 3 cores are Microbiology, Molecular & Cell Biology and Immunology..and e elective i got is Medical Technology.... kwengz~ welcome to hell..... another semester of hell.. sheeeeesh~ can i cry.... *bluek*... haha... so many things to do...... CE mods... PP project.. reports n shit.... n e gratest upcoming hell: FYP.. haha... ok ok... lets stop toking bout skoo...

yesterday Planet Dk was great! i actually stayed thru e whole show... cept for the last four groups.. canot tahan liao... 18 grps i watched.. sheeesh~ im someone who'd go home at the mid-break wen in a dk comp.. haha.. amazingly i managed to pull thru till e 18th grp..... coz we had to stay to support Lanang...*sobs*.. tgk ar..kitorang sanggup tau tunggu sampai korang perform... naik pening kepala gue.. anw... proud of ma sis... even tho there are slight flaws in it.. n ya.. keris did really well too.. (abg shak, 15 dolar?) kwengz...... n oh really love tun teja's perfrmnc.. superb... i didnt noe nadia was playing seh... kwengz... anjat gegerl nmpk ko..hahaha.... n yea... overall it was... great....... congratz to the winners... 1st kelana( bleargh~), 2nd mak yong, 3rd anak seni... kwengz~ alot to do for dylz!!

ok la..tats all... oh ya.. today was ok... went to tarian for like 5 to 10 mins only... den went to spore general hospital.. den dah... go back home sleeeeeepp!!!! tmr got dance again... weeee~
TOMORROW COMBINED DANCE PRAC AT 10AM!!! PLZ COME! THNX EH~
(lazy to sms e bdk2 tarian arh..hehz~)

*weeee~ driving wif sis is scary..*

im happy!

2005-09-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY!!!!!! CONTENTED!!! GLAD!!!! EXULTANT!!!! DELIGHTED!!! weee~ that's wat im feeling rite now!!! hehz.... coz u noe y? FINALLY met my baby juz now.. weee~ muackies! love u darling... had dylz training juz now as well.... n it was slacky? haha.. but its always fun to have dylz~ arnd.. especially adek... haha.. *winks*... den yea... spent some time wif ma baby~ den dah! n im HAPPY!! weee~

oh ya.. planet dk is tmr... hmm... still dono whther goin anot... sheeesh~ baby can i go? hmm.. kakak gona gimme tix.. but dono lei.. haiz... wana go support her.. WAHANA...kakak, aisyah, ayu, ain, n all e geng.. n KERIS..abg syakir.... n not forgetting LANANG SATRIA(our "family").... adi, rizal, qai, arip, n e rest.....haha... good luck for u guys..! so kak.. shud i still go? hmmm hmmm.. haha.. she was like "pakai da lawa2, jgn tk leh bwk lagu sudah"... haha.. i hope u do well.. but to tell u e truth.... its really memekak to hear u singing at home.. hehz... dun weri k..even though u might not be e juara of the juara(s), u'd still be be my juara sister.. haha.. errr.. k maybe tats lame.. kwengz~ ok la.. good luck to all k!

*so happy! + still missing u*

movie!!

2005-09-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

weee~ had drums today.... errrr.... received a bad news........ but its ok....oh ya... den waited for arip n wawa to end their kompang.... den off to town!!!!! me baby arip wawa..... weeeehoooo~~ haha.... it was GREAT!!! u know y? coz our dear cookie babi arip blanje us to movie!!! yeay~ hehz.... muackies to arip!!! weeee~ den waited for bam bam to arrive to join us as well.. so while waiting..... ape lagi... masok arcade... hahaha....... so long sia neva play arcade... get to play only a game of car racing...~ weeee~ hehz... den wawa n arip go play shooting game..dono wat shit.. den me n baby played a game of pool... kwengz~ so after wasting money in e arcade, n still waiting for bam bam... me arip freaking hungry so went to Pastamania for a bite... only e two of us la... haha... lagi dua ekor...... feeling2 dudok luar arcade... haha.... so thnx to arip again for e meal... hehz.... but i paid like errrr... 90 cents?? hehz.... den went back up juz on time for the movie! weeee~ nice nice movie..."As it is in heaven"... lovely...... yeay~ den took lotsa pix again again! haha... thnkies thnkies a lot a lot to arip!!! wee~ muaackkkkiiiieeeeessssss!!!!

*he....errr.....sheeshh....*
*still missing u..*

headache attackk!

2005-09-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

weehooo~ headache attack!!! pain pain!! urgh... asl eh... asl ar... asl eh! hmm hmm~ kweng kweng.... 2 pills down.. hope it will get better soon... weeee~ hmm... oh ya..i juz realized... ma pants is full of blue chalk sia... ni smua kerje fir ar ni...... sengaje kotorkn sluar org.. sheeesh~
oh yea... had dance juz now..... weee.. cool cool! haha.. its a multi racial dance wif the collaboration of the e other dance groups ar.... den hor... gues wat! im dancing as an INDIAN!!!! hahaha... weee~ coz there's only one indian gal.... so yea.... cikgu chose me n fadila to be e indian dancers.... kiwakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!! menyeksakan diri seh!!!! sheeesh! its uber uber hard rock cafe! (uber hard i mean..hehz ;p) .......... so yea........ we had to learn the SUPER HARD RAGAM... n it was... not OK!!!!haha... its kinda funny.. but more stressful... kwengz~ n its kinda geram to look at the malay n chinese dancers coz their steps are like SO EASY!! chicken chicken feet.. e steps are all so kental mental easy weasy.....sheeesh~ but for fad, i think she's quite ok wif it... coz she a good dancer... e best dancer in our group i shud say...... yea.... n she dance well..hehz.... oh well.. lets struggle togetha getha fad.... oh gosh... plz ar.. my major is MALAY dance lor... not indian.. hehz... sheesh~ but i guess i shud be trying out something new at times... it actualy reminds me of the time when i was learning the steps for the trip to Pakistan... nice... i miss Pakistan.. hehz... oh well.. here i come indian dance... wee~ hehz... oh oh! im gona wear indian too on e performance day!! weee~ hehz... i dono how it wud look like... i hope it wont be tat awful.. hehz..so if u wana see me shake shake it shake it shake shake it.. haha... plz come to Republic Polytechnic on the 11th of October 2005.. president SR Nathan will be there...weeee~
baby i miss u.... alot...... like crazzzzieee~

*feeling like an indian girl*

wee~

2005-09-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

Weeeee~ great a day today... apart from the blisters...hehz... had tarian in the morning... e wood stage at e plaza really suckz... ite really killing ma legs.... blisters after 2 hrs of dance... sheeesh... pain sia... den went to have lunch wif e tarian peeps... me lynna nunu suhaila adila wani fir arip jeff.. den went to pool... cool cool... haha... errr.... fir.... sucks... haha.. i demand a rematch! weee~ pool was fun... den went shopping!!! haha... took lots of pics... i'll upload later.... den chill at taka garden till it rains.. haha... wee~ muackies to u guys! now headache ar! missing him alot... tmr got dance... AGAIN... PLUS DRUMS.. sheeesh~ i think tmr wana go balik bedok... boring~ sheeesh.. tired sia... think gona fall sick.... sakit rindu~ hehz...

*missing my baby*

laila

2005-09-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

duhai laila~
bagai mawar...sekuntum bunga...
ditiup semilir hembus pawana~....
mewangi....... melumuri hati yg lara..........
lalalalala~

*shhhhhh!*

urgh~

2005-09-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

URGH! DAMN! MISS HIM ALOT.. MISS HIM BADLYYYY!!!!!SHEEEESH~ I DIDNT NOE IT HURTS THIS MUCH TO MISS SOMEONE... hehz~

*mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi~ S.N.A.L.I.S.K.*

vaccination

2005-09-09T17:59:00.000+08:00

booooboooooo~ went to tan tock seng hospital to get my vaccination earlier this morning... weee... painful...i loiiike! hehe.. n den me n wawa tied e YELLOW RIBBON at the novena mrt.. hehe.. so cool~ i tied quite a number of them (padahal dua je ar)..haha.. n wawa tied only one..kweng kweng... den went to buy new tops!! weee~ i looiikee!! been shopping alot lately.. sheeeessh... let me see.. this month, i bought.. ummm.. ummm.. a shoe.. LOTS of tops...ummm...contacts.. new escada... flowers, butterflies (clips).. n lots more... total spent: up to 5o0 bucks.. sheesh~ save up save up!!!!!

to kak emy... sori we had to err.. quit Jentz~ (Jentayu Sutera)... due to our commitments in skoo~ so yeah... sowie sowie... we met some nice friends over there.. n hope we'll still keep in touch aite.. all the best to Jentz! Muackies to kak emy! n kak syikin too! muackies! sowie~ hehe...

missing him alot.. so long neva meet him... so long neva spend time wif him.. sheesh~ im trying my best to understand the fact that u gona be bz wif ur exams n all.. haiz~ n yea.. im bz wif ma stuff too... drums...dance...dikir.. sheesh~ 3D.. haha... oh well.. juz want u to know im missing u loads! missing u badly!hope to see you real soon! haiz~ miss u alot baby.. love u my darling.. muackies....

*Miss the times we used to spend together... i love u..*

hunk of the day!!!!

2005-09-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

HUNK OF THE DAY: SYAFIQ!!!!

hmmmm~

2005-09-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

guess wat... have i told u? i dreamt of MAMAT..my god! sheeeesh... never eva thought tat he would appear in my dreams! errr or shud i say it was more of a NIGHTMARE! shucks! of all pple him eh... eeew~ hehz... k sori ar mamat... haha... anw... i dreamt of him getting engaged wif someone..... haha.. funny ar.... den wat else eh... umm.. got a lot ar... dont really remmber e whole thing.. haha.. how to remmbr kan...i was sleeping duH~ haha... wait..
i think i saw sidiq..smiling..errrr.. weird... sheeesh~ n got one more guy.. dono who... how i wish i knew... but e part i clearly remmbr was e part of mamat getting engaged... hahahaha... wat a nightmare..... plz eh.. stop it eh... don eva appear in my dreams again ehh.. haha...

hmmmm.... oh yah.. Lanang Satria... we do not want to affiliate wif u guys...so don giv us attitudes or headaches on this stuff la eh... i juz don understnd y.. its such a big issue to u guys on our "helper".....haiz.... tk sala pe dia tolong.. kan kan kan... u guys expect us to folow the way u guys handle ur pple.... i saw it wif my own eyes.... n i noe we did better than u guys... in terms of discipline, handling our pple and respecting among our members.... u guys have no discipline.. at all... no respect.... n don eva make us learn from u guys eva again.... im sure we know wat we are doin...... neither do we want to be controlled by u guys....

dance wise... auditions went well.. managed to pull through it.... weeee~ n oh... learnt the zapin dangdut e other day..... wah man.... nice sia..... but e ass part hard to do la.... but "pen" aka lynna can do it so well... haha.. suke? suke?? haha.. but e dance so cool ar... e performance will be on 16th October 2005 at Causeway Point.. those who wana see Zapin Dangdut do come ok... got gelek2... n oh oh... lynn bought for me this butterfly clip thing.... i loooiikkkeee!! thnx darl! muackies~

hmmm....... well well well.... he's having exams soon...... n im irritating him.... n im making him stressed up....... i noe im such a nuisance to u... sori baby... didnt mean to... but i juz miss u.... hmmm.... cant even see u... cant even meet u... cant talk to u.... haiz...... oh well...

*hating my self*

FOOD OF E DAY!!!

2005-09-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

yeay~ FOOD OF THE DAY!!! LE COCONUT (VANILLA) wooo~ its super super nice... its BIG!! no no... its HUMONGOUS!!! sooo tasty!!!! yumz yumz!a must try!!! at Delifrance!! only $1.20!!! Go get it NOW!!!!! wee~ hehhz...

tats ma LE COCONUT (VANILLA)!!!!

wawa bought a chocy version.... hehz.... yucks...hate chocs...

n finally!!! both e LE COCONUT VANILLA N CHOC TOGETHA GETHA... hehe.. weee~

*missing u....alot*

dk~ + WOMAD ASERE

2005-09-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

wooo~ yeay~ hehe...waiting for rai n arip to come ma hse for prayers....den off to dk later.... weeee~ hmmm.. nothing interesting happening tis past week ar... or rather i forgot e things tat happened.. hehz... BORINGGGGG~ oh oh wait... i remember!! haha..yesterday e guys from WOMAD- Asere came down to RP for a show!!! BOY THEY WERE SUPERBLY WONDERFUL!! I LOVE THEM!!! hehez.. they played n sang pieces of latin music n we learnt some salsa dance i think... hehe... den den got this twirl e hip thing... go down den go up..wah so cool... but tiring ar ... all of us were dancing there... it was nice cool chic n stylish! n guess wat.. dgr2 hafiz (jammerz arena aka RP idol) joget lawa giler.... haha.... especially the twirl the hips thing.. haha.. latin is juz his type of music ar... haha...nice nice~

ASERE!!!

One of the lead singers... who taught us e dance steps too..

them them them againn!!! weee~ they rox!

finally a pic wif them!!!! me arip n yuga wif ASERE!

yeay~ thats all for now... missing him~

*ALL the things that i say or do is WRONG to u..haiz~*

dance auditions

2005-08-30T12:36:00.000+08:00

HEY! DANCE AUDITIONS ARE OPEN!!! Next Monday, 10 am!! Sheeesh~ Im sure gona go for the audition... haha.. my chances?? 1/10??? haha... seriously no confident... all the dance republicans are gona be there for auditions! judges?? my beloved instructor...cikgu rahman... theme?? Traditional!! sheeesh~ what to dance?????? stress!!!! n whats more, my sri mahligai cd is gone!!! then no song!! DIE!!! my my my.......... oh well... to my dear tarian darlings... do come ok!!! try to get in aite... only 20 places!!! sheeeesh!!! wish us luck!!!

anw... for ur info... i wrote a post previously before this post... but i deleted it... coz it sounded too harsh... i think..... but for those who didt read it, its mainly about "FUCK OFF"... wana noe more? ask me personally n i'll show it to u... hehz....

*FUCK OFF... u noe who you are....*

drums room

2005-08-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

YEAY!!! lots of great stuff happening this week! its been really blissful for me to get all this great news....

First up.... 22nd august 2005!!! rmmber this date!!! not becz its my 1st yr 3rd mth anniversary wif my beloved irwan (Happy Anniversary my dear)... BUT its e day we found "IT"... it was born! officially..... weeeeee~ more details in e near future..... unable to disclose it due to some "technical probs".. haha.. ceh! technical probs eh!! hehe....

Next up.. My much-loved Ethnic Drummers..... Great news people.... hehe.... Well... i have not told any of u guys yet.......... so i shall announce it here....haha...... We're gona get our much deserved ACOUSTIC DRUM SET from Bob!!!!!!!! Tomorrow!!!!! yeay!!! excited rite?? i noe baby confem happy seh... kan kan kan... baby confem conquer tat drum... if not her, den apiz would... haha... watch out u guys! weeee~ but e fun doesnt stop there!!!!
There's more!!! ED's getting a NEW ROOM!!!! BIGGER ROOM!!!! yeay!!!!! great lace for our jamming!!!! oh my i cant wait!!!! weeee~ here comes e sofas, pillows, curtains, chairs, food....everything!!!! im surely gona doll up tat room!! weeeee~ so guys! ethnic drummers! plz come for training tomorrow ok!! hehe..muackies......!

*so in love with you... yes...you....*

julius caasar

2005-08-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

hey!! e musical at NP, "Julius Caesar" was superb!!! great job to e drama pple of ngee an poly... hehe.... n to my dear..... great job too!! wooo!! n all e "warriors", *claps*... and oh... taufiq, great job!! superb! hehe..brape bnk great job dahhhh.... oh well... on a whole... e musical was a very nice one........ hehe.. oh ya... went to e play with wawa n amru aka abu.... soo fun bullying him....hahaha....n oh...am!!! send me e pix!!!! we practically took LOTS N LOTS of pix!!! haha....so fun!!!!

oh ya...dgr2, ade budak wahana ni kn...bace my blog...... kpade sesiape yg da bace2 ni blog kn.... diam2 je la........tk ya kecoh2....tk yah sebar2.......tk yah kacau org lain.......haha...... so...dik..oh dik.......tolong jgn kacau org lain k....... coz u might juz end up irritating other pple..........hehe... ok dah..tu je....thnx eh....

the piece below... it was dedicated for me... by irwan.....

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
If you think you're lonely now
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

*loving u*

haizzzzzzz..im sory dear...

2005-08-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

im stuck...... at ma void deck... i cant get in.... haiz..... nobody's home..... sheeesh~ i guess its juz too early for me to get home.... time check: 9.50pm... haiz.... lucky got ma wireless connection.....boring sia...... oh ya.... freaking cold the whole day today..... was otw to skoo.... n it rains soooo heavily suddenly........ i guess the sky's crying for me too huh.... oh ya.... there was one small umbrella, with 4 pple... haha.. in e end... all wet..... had UT... it sux........ haiz....... was shivering throughout e test..... e klas F***ing cold.....

oh ya.... yesterday....show was ok ok ar...met alot of ma frens in TP........ haha... but dikir wise... ummmm....... haha... some mistakes here n there.......... mic got prob.......cant hear a single thing e frontmen were singing..........sheeeeesh......... but bile part PST, mic ok plak eh............. ish.....tk ke gerammmmmm!!! haha... oh well...... fun performing wif nira.. thanks...

haiz..... haizzz.... haizzzzzzzz........ wats wrong eh.... haiz.... entah la..... i really dono seh........... im sori..... really sori........ if i did anything wrong....... but plz.... at least tok to me..... i realize that this few days.... uve always been angry..... VERY angry........... n u'd find all the faults in me..... even wen i did ntg wrong...... e worse thing..... u'd ungkit everything else..... haiz........ i noe u dont like it if i let myself out on cyber space..... u don want other pple to noe my stuff.... but i feel better this way........ im sure u noe that i write wat i feel..... furthermore... its very hard to tok to u......... we'll always end up fighting.... OR i'd never get a chance to express myself........ i noe u'd read tis........ plz....... i want us to work out...... i cant go on like tis........ it sux....its back like how we used to be...always fighting............ i hate it seh...... urgh! maybe its me... i noe....... ive done alot...... of mistakes.......... im sorry seh..... really sorry.......
URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*IM HATING THIS*

skool sux

2005-08-16T10:12:00.000+08:00

weeee~ errr.. 2 days in a row... cabot skoo... sheeeesh~ i feel bad.... BUT SKOO REALLY SUX!! urgh! anw had my Biochem UT juz now.... SUX! urghhhhhhh!! haiz.......~ yesterday was errr... appplied chem...oso sucky....sheeeeesh~.... wats gona to happen to ma grades eh? haha... oh well... making ma head pain only la..........
hmmm.... Oh Oh!! haha... yesterday was fun! haha.. training i mean... haha.. *surprise surprise*... haha... shocked rite???!!! hehe... in life... u juz have to expect the unexpected rite?!! haha... oh well... its fun doing some lying and cheating at times.......... haha... lagipon....... i always kena from other pple mahhhh...... always lying n cheating me... *grrrrr* haha..... tapi klau da dpt tau tu, tk yah kecoh, tk yah tanye panjang2 la eh............... coz e same questions seem to be coming to me........haha........ oh well.......
do come this wed.... @ TP.. got dikir show.... their lunchtime performance..........weeeee~

*surprise surprise*
*missing him*

URGH!

2005-08-14T13:21:00.000+08:00

Never eva eva eva take things that does not belong to u........... its bad... really bad......
it might hurt e person owning that "property"..........
And if u don't get that "property".....don't eva cry for it......
don eva be angry for not owning that "property".....
be thankful for what u have...........
im really hurt........... for not owning that "property"......
its not mine..... no use crying over it.... no use being angry over it...........
its uselessssss.........! it hurts! URGH!
JEALOUSY? HATRED? MISERABLE? GLOOMY? REGRET??
i don know.......
i know it HURTS...
thats all.........

*i have NO RIGHT.....sori~*

i sux

2005-08-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

irwan: u sux
me: *silent*
irwan: u sux
me: *silent*
irwan: u sux
me: *silent*
irwan: u sux
me: *silent*
..... continued for a few more times.......
i know i sux...i noe im e bitch..i noe im e sundal...i noe im e slut...u keep on reminding me tat.... but i think u don need to.... coz i oreadi got tat into ma head..... i noe... I SUX..I BITCH..I SLUT..I SUNDAL.. hmm...
and oh ya..i hate BC..black coffin tat is... n weneva ure part of them...i hate u too..........

irwan: *HANGS UP*
me: *lost...sobz*

A wretched soul, bruised with adversity
We bid be quiet when we hear it cry
But were we burdened with like weight of pain
As much or more we should ourselves complain

*urgh!*

missing ethan

2005-08-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

i miss him... alot... ethan....i love u.. don weri... u'll be alright dear... haiz.....im sacrificing one skoo day, tmr, juz to send him over to the doctor.... haiz.... oh ya... to those who dont know... his full name is mohamed ethan..aka..my laptop..its very sick...
oh ya...someone bought me a new roxy slipper seh today..hehe..thnx eh.... muackies!! i love it lots! love it tons! i lloooooiiikkkeee!!! hehe...
oh ya..juz rmmbered....BOB TAN!! do we get e acoustic drum set anot?? hehe.. u promised to give it to ethnic drums rite.. hehe... plz plz plz... can la..... can eh.... hehe...... yeay~
errrr..back to my darling ethan.. u'll be ok dear... lets all pray for his safety n may he live long...

*love ma roxy flops.....muacks muacks muacks*

2005-08-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

holaz.... ok guys... here's an announcement to make..... MY LAPTOP CRASHED!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!! how could tat be!!!! i dont kno0w!!!! oh oh!! could it be a ghost??!! *ok cut* that's lame... haha.. coz rite...my hp is really haunted.. tat u hav to believe.... wawa saw it herself... hahaha...
oh well.. back to my LAPPY~ oh dear...... need to go to ACER............coz IT helpdesk cant do anything now... shucks... no lappy for skoo on thurs...
hmm.. solution? don go to skoo!!! haha.... n noe wat.... im now using ma sis' comp.....n IT SUX!!! sheeesshhh~ haiz.... so bored without ma lappy..........................
i miss u.... i love u....... i need u!!!!!
*errr... that's for my lappy ok...haha... kpd sesiape yg membace jgn terase...*
haiz~ no mood liao...... lappy plz come back to mummy... i need u badly....................... i love u more than my irwan *winks*... {haha...joking la dear}

*plz come back*

putri ku

2005-08-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

holaz..man... im so sleeeepyyyy! but i don feel like sleeping!! haha.... its lke only 2330 now... still early lahz~ haha... anihoos, went to e rajawali comp last sun wif wan... n it was GREAT!!! haha... went there to support ma sis..... wahana deksu..... she playin e juara.... well i tot she gona die... hhaha... but she did manage to pull it thru! haha.. goodies... congrats kakak!! haha.. oh ya... one shock.... wahana got tat GAL arrrrr!!!! wah lau... haha... unexpected! oh well......... panjy n all were there too...butttttttttt KELANA WON! wat e hell seh...... haha.... yucks~ hmmm...
so tired... so full....haha.... oh ya....went for dinner wif wawa kakak n her "bf", abg putra... ahhaah... or putri is wat i'd call him........ hahaha....... yea.... den went to pizza hut n crap around..... hahah..... siao ar!!! so fun!! n oh .... "putri", y u so lembut ar??? hahah...aiyo..... oh well....
hmmm.... gota rest... tmr got drums performance in skoo... oh ya... have i mentioned ive been promoted to President? ahaha... yeay~ but stress ar...... so many things to do.... yet so little time.... haiz~ oh ya... n Shaz is now my secretary.... hhaaha..cool ar....now he has to do all the work, n i can relax....but i still have to guide him thru....so i cant relax yet... haha..oh well.......... wana sleep now...niteys~ muackies...

*missing him*

sat

2005-07-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

weeeeee~ didnt do anything e whole of saturday afternoon... haha... so bored.......... den went out to have dinner with irwan... bla bla..... accompanied ijad to study...... haha..stressy boi.........haha... goody luck anyways...... hmm.. den mummy fetch me n irwan and send him home...........den went to granny's place...... den went to do some shopping ....... den went back home..... has a bad tummy otw home juz now... haha.. sheeeesh.....
oh ya.... yesterday... went to MANIFESTASI..... errrr..... overall, i'd give them a 7 out of 10....... it was ok ok only la..... lets start wif the TARIAN.... wah lau.... the dance.... hmmm.. well ya it all seems very familiar.....all e steps ive done b4..... like duh.... coz e instrctor is my azpirasi's instrctor.... haha... im proud of him... my cikgu... cikgu azmie......... he did e dance well.... but e dancers.... wah lau.... memalukan ar.... no offence....... no professionalism in e dance......... there's still room for improvement...... i believe they can.. well done.... for the DIKIR..... my god.......... e singing........again, no offence... it SUCKS..... it was ok ok only la..... anw fir, e juara for e guys, great job.... a surprise indeed....haha... hmmm.... e awok was better than e juara n n karut i muz say...... they can do better la.......... but eh........ e thing is.... i realized that their concept of dikir for the guys rite..... like panjy's one..... during TP's pentas......haha..... copyright huh....hehe.... oh well..... TP's one is better i muz say...... anw.... for e drama, it was WELL DONE!! great one.... hehe.....
errr.. wat else eh...... oh ya.... yesterday saw this person... wah lau.... looks like e sight of shit... haha... neva eva hate ma frens..... or i'll hate ya too... i'd love to giv ya shit if possible too..... oookie doookie.... tats all....haha... toodles..... muackies......!

*loving u ....always...*

boring~

2005-07-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

ok lets blog....... im bored......to death..... really..... stayed home the whole of today...... nothing to do..... ive done everything..... send mails? DONE.. chat? DONE... sleep? DONE... study? DONE... msg him? DONE...eh wait..did i? hmm... *checking sent msgs* oh yups...DONE.. say i miss him? DONE... oh oh...bath? DONEEEEE!!! weeeee~ done a lot of things... n left me nothing to do... oh ya.... guess wat... i was so free juz now n i decorated my laptop with sequins!!! wooo~ nice~ very very nice... ive got lots n lots of them!!! i love sequins~ hehe.. if u wana see, come to ma klas tmr ok... hahaha...
wat else did i do.....hmmm oh oh.... i edited e colors on my multiply site.... check it out... http://missystylish.multiply.com oh ya.... went to kota tinggi last sun to visit ma cuzzies whom ive neva met b4.. haha... went to their kampong, den to the beach... it was super fun... oh ya... we plucked the rambutans from the kebun.... n lotss of stuff... saw lots of KAMBING....haha.. i love kambing... i love MY kambing.... hehe...muackies... oh ya... it was really fun being in kampong... BUT... i hate the mosquitos....like shit sia! i donated a lot blood on sun.... haha....so kind of me rite... oh well.... blogging is making me bored too... ciao... love ya dear....muackies...

*missing him.............................e hopes of meeting him were gone.............juz like dat*

E GrEAT DAY!

2005-07-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

WOOOOO! ITS A GREAT DAY TODAY!! i feel good~ lalalalala~ hehe.... ok let me tell ya guys every single detail of it aite.. wooo~ ready? *drum rolls*
0830hrs:
met up wif wawa hafez n baby at redhill.. took cab to skoo... met yuga shazni n ash... we're all e drummers la... den started training....final touch ups... den my strap for e djembe was really not comfy... so had to adjust here n there...
1000hrs:
proceeded to one stop ctr to meet up wif e silat peeps.. bus took us to NLB...take oown sweet time, reached NLB at 1100hrs...
1100 ++ hrs:
took lotsa pics there.... really really cool ar... it was a nice place.... so big... so cool... den chilled and took more pics, den jammed for a while... lunch break.. bla bla bla...pic pics pics...
1240hrs:
get ready for performance.... set up drums... djembe freaking heavy... had to tahan.. hahaa.. den played wif small kids... haha
1300hrs:
SHOWTIME!! wooo~ we kicked start e eventand off we go!! woooo~ there were quite a lot of pple.... families...frens...lots of RPians..haha... our show was great no doubt... we had fun... music was good, e pple were good, n we felt really good too.... after e show, tat was not e end!!! haha..
there were like so many cameras around.. and lots of kids too.. so we let them have a hands on session wif our drums...yea..den there were lots more of jamming goin on...... jam jam jam n more jam...hahah... it was super fun... n pple juz took lotsa of snaps!! so cool! haha... n oh ya... e babies are soooo cute!!! oh my.... hahaha.... well ya...we jam for quite some time, wen Dr Gan told me to get e drummers to play outside.... reason being, there's a Channel News Asia Camera outside!!! hahah... so we quickly moved our stuff out, n jammed outside... juz like buskering... so yea... we sat by the roadside, and played our stuff..... n yea... of cos... we caught the attention of the cameraman, and he recorded us in!!! woooo~ so cooooooL ar!!! hahaha... den there's this lil gal.....she's so cute... n she danced to our beats... wah...so cute ar she...hahah.. so yea... den we were like so happy coz we were on camera.. so do catch Channel News Asia aite! hahaha... den off to skoo to put our drums back....
1400 ++hrs:
went to town... wif wawa hafez n baby....n yea... walk walk walk....n played this cool game.... rating pple on e streets n gets punched if u say e same number.. so yea.. we played it all e way while walking in town... n of coz... i was kena hit by all them so any times... fuckin painful sia!!! but it was super fun la go out wif ya guys..... haha... muackies... k den went to heeren... purpose: to meet rai to see her new top she juz bought.... BUT BUT BUT... before we went in, we saw a shooting for TGIF.. a programme on SURIA... den yah.. so excited...saw abg khai...... den hafez ar so excited wana take pic wif him... so yea... he went up to him... den we followed... so yea... hafez go say he wana take pic, but on a condition ar...abg khai told us to do somthing for the show...... hahaha.....so cool ar...... so yea... we juz had to fulfill it...coz we took a pic wif him...den did tat "something"..haha..err.. we were on camera la...baby wawa me n hafez...hahha...so funny....anihoos do catch us on TGIF either this friday or next friday...hahah...so FUN!! today lotsa camera exposures!!! haha...our lucky day~ so yea.... den went to chill at somerset..n took more pics!!! kinda boring la actually...all so exhausted liao... haha...so yea...chill chill chill...drink drink..... den went off...den went to library........n guess wat!!! we were LOCKED IN THE LIBRARY!!! oh ma god!!!!! coz e fire alarm went off..... so we were like stuck!!! gosh.....ahaha..but funny ar....so cool.... hhaha..took a pic of it...haha.... den went off home....weee~ freaking tiring day.... i had a great day!! anyways, e pics will be uploaded soon at my http://missystylish.multiply.com ...... woooo~ i had a great day guys... i hope we cud do all this again soon yea....ED rox! haha... love ya guys...muackies...........!

y does my happiness wif u end so fast? all i wanted is to be wif u... wats e use of having a relationship if it doesnt seem like one? haizzzzzzzz............forget it........ im tired of faking smiles...im hating all this distress..........................i love u....

*it was a great day on e outside.. on e inside..only god knows how i feel*

14th anniversary

2005-07-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 14th MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO ME N MA DARLING IRWAN SHAH!!!! MUACKIES! I LOVE U LOTS!! MISS YA LOTS!!!! weeeee~ yeay... me my boyfriend and i... i love u so much dear.. muackies...

err..im very tired today...anw, thnx for the surprise dear.. haha...thnx for popping by ma skoo without telling me..haha..id still love u la....hhaha.. hmmm yah...was bz e whole day.... very tired.. got drums everyday again... tmr performing at NLB at 1pm!! come ok... we, the EDs are gona rock city hall!!! hahaha.. well ya, do come support us ok..... im very tired... no mood to continue.... i miss him alot.... i love u alot.... thnx dear....

k ciao..wana dream bout him now.............................................................................................

*it was such a fantasy*

party

2005-07-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

PaRtY PaRtY PaRtY pArTy!!!!! woooooo!!! i lOooooiiikkkeee!!!! haha...thanks helmi!! for throwing a party for us!!! MUAX MUAX MUAX!! so yea... met up wif the rest at pasir ris and headed to cheers at downtown east to buy beer.. grrrrr..use ma money somemore!!! shitttyyyy!!! k yea.. den headed over to helmi's hse... super nice ar his terrace... but scarrrrryyyy.... its beside e red house... yea so we chill bla bla bla... eat eat eat... oh oh oh! his potato salad is superrrr nice! yummyz~ yea... den ma n apiz were like in charge of e bbq-ing... n jazz is like e waitress.. haha..so cool... pple say tat ma chicken wings is well cooked..hahah.. oh well.. kate lala... ehhehe..*kembangz* .. yea... den had some dancing.. i really muz say tis man... gurmit, ure e sexiest dancer eva man!!! u rock!!! hahaha... too bad ure a gay... *oooops*... hehehe... yea.. oh ya... den some stoopid fella spike e drinks... shitty ... wif some vodka... i think its its helmi... haha.. siao ar he... no wonder wen i drank it, e heaty sensations were there... hahha.. funny sia... oh well.. but e party was sooooooo FUN!!!! met some of helmi's close frens... n as usual... helmi talk bad abt me to his frens.. hahaha... shit him.. n ohh yaa!!! we kinda "ransack" his bedroom!!! n we found lots of shocking things!! he wore a FEMALE deodorant, has a karmasutra by his bed... n lots more...!!! oh ma god!!! its so fun doin tat without him knowing!!! hahaha.. u guys are reallly bad huh.....! den arnd 10, most of them left...n e remaining lil shits played "THE" game..... haha... fun ar... everyone so sporting... cept for lilin... haha.. lots of *Muackies*!! hehe.. oh well..OVERALL, I WANA DO IT AGAINN!!! ITS SO FUN!!!!! muackies to all!!!!

errrrr...... i juz feel that we are not getting any better......................................dont u think so? i dont know seh.............. how?? how?? im lost... in ma own world... ALONE.... i need u to conquer my world... juz like how we used to be for the past year....... is it going to work out?? i dont know.... i really love u a lot irwan shah... muackies....

kk gota study now! tmr UT! anatomy n physiology!! who got notes??!!! i need them!!

*i want more parties plz!!!*

bloody ethnic drums!

2005-07-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

CAN U PLZ STOP WASTING MY TIME!!! U CAN FUCK OFF IF U WANT TO!! IM SICK AND TIRED OF FACING ALL THIS!! I HAVE NOT BEEN GETTING ANY RESPECT, AND YET U HAVE THE CHEEK TO TALK TO ME LIKE THAT! BIG FUCKER! FFFFFUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!! ARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!! SHITTTTTTTTT U!!!!!!!

*breathe in*........................*breathe out*...................................................................................... ooookie now.... im just so pissed with my Ethnic Drummers... the year ones especially... well, i asked them nicely and keep on reminding them to come for trainings and stuff like that... n i would waste my handphone bills sms-ing them, and wasting my time sending out mails to them... just to remind them to come for trainings.. coz if they dont come for 3 consecutive weeks, they would be automatically kicked out... so yea.. this member.. year one guy... stooopid fella.. i clearly told all of them to give me a reason or at least just inform me if they are not coming for trainings... n there he is... when asked, he replied with a bloody rude language to me.. FUCK U LA!!! who do u think u are! i don need u in my group either! i mean he could just say nicely he cant come or anything.... den he also became pissed and said he quit drums... well good for ya!! i don wana see ur face anymore either!!! and same goes for the others!! THOSE WHO DIDNT COME..U BETTER GIMME UR VALID REASONS!! or else u can fuck off aite... bloody kelings... waste my fucking time only...n those who came, thank u so much... i really appreciate it... muackies... ok... so thats about members wise..
and now... about the President... SHIT U ALSO LA!! FUCK U!! FOR MAKING ME DO ALL THE WORK IN ETHNIC DRUMS!!! TILL WHEN ARE U GONA DO THIS TO ME??!! SO WAT IM THE VP?? IM JUST ASSISTING U!!! NOT UR BLOODY MAID!!! FUCKER!! UVE ALWAYS BEEN GIVING ME EXCUSES... THIS AND THAT! YA RITE! SO THAT'S AN EXCUSE FOR U TO MAKE ME DO ALL THE WORK LA..!! SHIT U!

ARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! CANT TAKE IT SEH!!! HAIZ...........

*FUCK OFF EVERYONE*

weirdo

2005-07-12T18:48:00.000+08:00

WEIRD.... very weird... Why this feeling? I don't know... I'll never know... I just feel weird... With him being around me now... We don't talk... Anymore... I don't know... Is it me? Or is it him? I think its me... Awkward is what I'm feeling now... It's so weirddddddddd... He is a very nice friend... Very sweet too... Cares for people's feelings... Cares a lot... I respect that... And appreciate it too... But what happened? I don't know... I've always treated you as a friend... And a brother... But... Sorry if I bring this up... I don't know why but I juz felt you wanted more... I don't know... Really... I know you care... But I care for you too as a friend... And I don't wish to lose a nice friend like you... I love Irwan... I really do love him... I hope you all my friends could accept that fact... And respect that too... I really feel bad... I'm really sorry... If I hurt any parties...

I need to talk with you again,
why did you go away,
All our time together,
just feels like yesterday,
I never thought I'd seen,
a single day without you,
the things we take for granted,
we can sometimes lose.

And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again,
will I see you again.

Cos time will pass me by,
may be I'll never learn to smile,
But i know I will make it through,
if you wait for me.
(won't you wait for me.)

And all the tears I cry,
no matter how I try.

They will never bring you home to me,
won't you wait for me in heaven.

Do you remember how it was,
when we never seemed to care.

The days went by so quickly,
cos I thought you'd always be there.

It's hard to let you go,
though I know that I must try.

I feel like I've been cheated,
cos we never said goodbye.

And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again.

Cos I miss you so,
and I need to know,
Will you wait for me.

*missing redhill blues*

redhill blues!

2005-07-10T17:22:00.000+08:00

its OVER...i miss ALL of u..the cast n crew of RHB.. thank u so much for leaving this memory in my life.. it was such a great experience doing this production with all of u... meeting them, knowing them.. they are such great people..it's a beautiful journey indeed.. with a beautiful ending.. simply marvellous... i love all of u... e great friends ive met.. n we became a family.. juz like that.. not forgetting the mat (helmi) .. haha.. our greatest director ever.. he was fun.. thanks a lot.. oh my... I REALLY DO MISS ALL OF U, THAT I FEEL LIKE CRYING... THANX AGAIN FOR MAKING A GREAT IMPACT IN MY LIFE.. LOVE YA GUYS..

*shall we do this again?*

2005-07-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

us in the trainnnnnnnn~after rehersal...

2005-07-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

me wawa baby~ my precious darlings....muackies..

2005-07-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

"mystery guy", wawa n me... shawl playing in session.. haha..

2005-07-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

wooooo~ stop fighting guys!! eh no no...stop fighting GIRLS!!! haha..